SYAFIQAH'S

define weak!

Tuesday, September 13, 2011,

ape perasaan, kalu kite korbankan hujung minggu, instead of balek rumah dan ubati homesick, kite pg buat wardround, n all we get is a patient shouting in our face. smpai nurse2 pown pandang terkejot. lps tu patient2 laen pown toleh utk tgk kite kna tempik. x cukop dgn tu, slps spend smpai hampir 1 pagi dalam ward, amek darah sume. tido lewat, bgn awal, n x tdo spnjang hari smpai malam tu, malam tu plak patient buat hal lagy. setengah jalan tgh clerk, dye kate dye xnk jwb soalan. lps tu membebel2 kate dye rse medical students mganggu. kite da la penat, esok kelas lagy, presentations, quiz, pbl, segala benda la kan. n there he is, saying that medical students were not doing their best. *sigh*

so, tell me. if u were in my position, dont u feel like cursing these people? x rase k nk doakan dorg x sembuh? msty ade kan? we r human. come on. when people treat us badly, hati msty terluke. btol? kalu x, u r one extraordinary person. marila buat medik. of course i feel like hentak2 that patient, rse nk maki dye balek, nk sound n buat sgale benda yg menakutkn dkt dye kan. tapi, when i actually stop, n think, is that how my parents brought me up? to treat others badly, just because they hurt u? nope. if i did that, i have just prove to them, that my parents failed to bring me up.

even though it hurts to be scolded, when ur intention is to actually help these people to get better. u have to bear something in ur mind, LIFE MIGHT B UNFAIR TO U, BUT ALLAH IS ALWAYS FAIR. even though that pagi i was yelled by that uncle, dsbbkn that frustration, i actually went to this other uncle. sape sangke, uncle SGT SPORTING, he let me do ANY EXAMINATION ON HIM. mlm tu plak, he was transferred to another ward. while in my process of searching for him, i bumped into this very nice doctor who was on on-call. he actually let me follow his ward round n let me take blood from his patients. yes people, that nite, i actually poke 7 people. ha7. Alhamdulillah. if only that uncle didnt yelled at me, surely i wont meet this other patient, n i wont meet this doctor n of course, i wont get the chance to do venepuncture on REAL HUMAN. kan? see how GREAT ALLAH is?

n that uncle who babbled at me about how he is annoyed with medical students, well, i chose to keep on smiling at him. he can treat me badly, but i promise myself to treat him nicely. u know why? sbb kite jage HUBUNGAN dgn manusia, bukan utk disukai manusia, tapi utk, DISAYANGI ALLAH. betol? :) nway, dsbbkn xdapat clerk dye la, i berjaya clerk this other patient who manage to get me 9/10 for my history taking assessment. :) Alhamdulillah.

let me tell u the truth, the nite i kene bebel dgn dat uncle, i was SO FRUSTRATED. mane x, malu la, patient laen pandang kite kna bebel. nurse pandang, doct laen sume pandang. jatuh air muke. i actually cried when i walked out of the ward. xdela nk nanges dlm ward kan. itu sgt memalukan. smbil turun tangge hospital, air mate berlinang (mcm dalam filem). dalam hati mmg benci yg sgt besar dkt pakcik tu. so i decided, balek asrama, ambil air smbhyang, solat, n open the Quran. n u know what was the 1st verse i saw as i opened the Quran? here,

Wahai orang - orang yang beriman! Jauhilah banyak dari PRASANGKA, ssghnya sebahagian dpd prasangka itu DOSA, dan janganlah kamu mencari-cari KESALAHAN orang lain, dan jangan lah ada di antara kamu MENGUNJING sebahagian yang lain. Apakah ada di antara kamu yang suka memakan daging saudaranya yang sudah mati? Tentu kamu merasa jijik. Dan bertakwalah kepada Allah, sungguh Allah Maha Penerima TAUBAT, Maha Penyayang.

-Al-Hujurat, 12-

There, right to my face. why did i even think of bad stuffs about the uncle? Masya-Allah. ^^

Bile dtimpa mcm2 kesedihan, n we really need someone to talk to, sometimes without us realising we r actually adding a burden to somebody else's shoulder. sbb tu la, it's better to mngadu to Allah. He's always there to listen, n He gives u the answer, in so many ways. just wait n c. :)

PEOPLE MIGHT DISSAPOINT YOU, BUT ALLAH NEVER.