sometimes, FAILURE comes FIRST, then comes SUCCESS
Wednesday, July 13, 2011,
it's 1.10am. im super tired. i woke up 6.30am the morning before. n till now, i havent shut my eyes even for a minute. had a long lecture in the morning, then 2 hours of wardround. nway, we were given a task by a doctor to prepare a case on respiratory system by Thursday. so, knowing that the patients are VERY LIMITED! i know i hve to find one as fast as possible. Alhamdulillah, 3 of my friends volunteered to help me. we split into two groups of two. i was told by a senior yg ward 12U bnyk respt case. org laen pg ward ade senior, ktorg xde. sbb mase yg ktorg nk pg, xde senior yg free. so. we decided to be independent. kate Dr. Rokiah, MAKE THE HOSPITAL UR HOME, BE COMFORTABLE IN IT. i wont deny, it was one scary moment. bygkan la, nk pg ward, all by your own. we only depend on what we were taught earlier in the morning. pandai2 pgy kaunter, tnye nurse utk buku TL, pndai2 cari case, pndai2 cari katil, pndai2 introduce diri, mintak kbnaran, and ask questions.
the 1st 15 mins in the ward was scary. ingt sng nk cari patients yg nk coorporate? on 1st attempt, we were rejcted. the patient kate nk tdo. honestly, at that point, hafsah n i thought we had no hope in meeting any patients. sbb as we walked through the corridor, peeping at the rooms, sume mcm STARE AT US. some of the visitors actually smirk at us, protecting their love one from being interrogated by us. till at one point, we actually stood and stared the empty corridor for nearly 5 mins before we could gather back our guts and tried our luck once again.
with a Bismillah, we walked again through the corridor. and in one room, we saw an aunty.was staring blankly at her bedsheets. we decided, maybe we should just try to approach her. just for the sake of making sure she was alright. n Alhamdulillah, she's actually one of the respt patient, on pleural effusion. u have no idea how happy n grateful i was. we, as a beginner, stumbled along the way, stopped and startled at each other, ran out of questions to asked, but she was being nice n kind enough to be saying ; XPE, BRU NK BELAJAR KAN'. we smiled at the words. lps habes dye, i was zest to find more patients. and Alhamdulillah, we managed to find another 2 patients. kate dr. Rokiah : U SHOULD AT LEAST HAVE 3 PATIENTS A DAY. yes, we do spent a lot of time with one patient. it was nice to hear their stories.
our last patient actually said this : WAKTU MUDE LA KITE NK CARI ILMU, KUMPUL HARTA. PAKCIK DOAKAN ANAK2 BERJAYA, SEMOGA ALLAH PERMUDAHKAN. lps aminkan his doa, we decided to call it a day. it was the nicest feeling on earth. to know that we actually managed to do it by our own. i know, we might b doing the wrong thing, but at least, we tried. balek ward, discuss plak dgn seniors on our techniques. yes, we were corrected here n there, but at least, we know we have done something that make us proud today. the feeling, honestly, is wordless. no words can describe it. u want to feel it? try one day, going to the ward ALL BY YOURSELF. enter an unknown territory, n try to fit in :) u know, i was so nervous earlier, that i actually took my wudu' before going to the hospt.
n yes, thank u Allah for making things easier for us. as i walked back to my room, i kindda wonder, what will happen if we actually gave up when we were rejected on our first attempt?
this song kinda inspire me earlier,
new past