as.written

be my teddy!

2012-01-27T12:29:00.000+08:00

the fact that we both hardly get any holiday (blame the faculty), this one week of holiday would b MEANINGLESS if we didnt c each other. the main plan was that, I NEED TO FIND A NEW PAIR of shoes. n i've been eyeing these shoes at cotton on. n sbb malas nk drive jaoh2, we decided to just settle dkt Pavilion. after all, it's just a 10 minutes drive from home sweet home. hampe, sbb cotton on pavilion not as big as i thought. n shoes dye pown was like.... urghhh! so i ended up buying this sweet heaven shoes at... forever 21. i tell u, pavilion punye forever 21 is my most fav! sbb... IT'S ALWAYS ON SALE! after our lunch, nk pg parking, ttbe ternampak these bears!

WOAH! BERUANG! NK CARI BERUANG MALAYSIA!

eh dari mne dtg bear2 nie?

NTAH! TAPI KNA TGKAP GMBA NI!

a'ah! lps tu letak kat fb kite eh! nk tunjuk aisyah!

as always, the PINK FONT belongs to me, while the purple one belongs to Khaty. knape mine sume capslock? utk meng-express my SUPER EXCITED MOOD!

wanita yg sgt kagum nmpk beruang!

my sweet2 teddy for the day. KHATY the TEDDY!

(see! it rhymes!)

lps sweat2 under the hot sun, WE FOUND BEAR MALAYSIA!

but i must say, yg plg cantek n nmpk sgt exclusive to me is...FRANCE! u should c it urself!

but my fav is, bear IRELAND!

it's SO CUTE!

dont say im not patriotic ok, when it comes to art, i cant b blinded by which country im from! ha5.

conclusion, i didnt hang out much with my babes this holiday, but this one day, was more than enough! u all should come n c these buddy bears (im not sure whther that's what they are called)

set free the living soul!

2012-01-26T10:01:00.000+08:00

today, i woke up feeling extremely hyper-active! it's like... SO MANY THINGS i wana do!!! feels like going on a train n go to penang, lps tu patah balek. then naek flight straight to the STATES! bnyk nye nk buattttt! tapiiiiiiii..... money is the limiting factor *sigh**sigh**sigh*

nway, last nite, before i slept (while i was staring aimlessly at the ceiling), it kindda came to my mind. the things that i would like 2 do before i shut my eyes FOREVER.

they are :
1) bungee jumping
2) parachute jumping (is there such thing?) ala. the one u jumped off a plane tu!
3) swimming with the sharks
4) wall climbing (the last tyme i did this was... when i was 11.long tyme ago babe)
5) go-kart
6) FISHING! (i know it's boring, but i wana try!)
7)
8)
9)
10)

i know, one day, im gonna fill number 7 till 10. for the tyme being, let it be empty dulu. u cant rush things that u wana do kan??! hehehehehe.

crossing the unexpected

2012-01-26T10:00:00.002+08:00

i have been wanting to write this post A LONG LONG time ago. so here it comes. some of my friends have been asking me, whether im wearing niqab (or in bahasa : PURDAH). the answer is... sometimes. on certain occasions, or places, that i think is appropriate.

i've always admire those girls on niqab. they are super brave people i tell u. but to me, im not that strong YET! im in the process of trying n hoping slowly, the guts will come. to me, niqab gives me the sense of protection. like when im travelling alone, or going to an unknown territory, n im seeking for protection, niqab provides me one. of course, the real protection is from Allah, but helps comes with effort. kan?

n i must admit, everytime when i put on the niqab, the feeling was different. i felt happier. the prob is, i havent learn how to eat with the niqab on. as i said, im in the process of learning. n i still have a few issues to encounter first before i can put it on permanently.

one day, when im completely ready, i will put it on. insyaAllah. but for the tyme being, im focusing on jage aurat yg wajib dijage 1st.

good day earthlings :)

can u hear the waves?

2012-01-25T23:17:00.000+08:00

i always love the beach. the sand, the waves. everything, is pieces of serenity.

n when the waves brushes through my toes, i just cant help thinking, how small n weak i am, if to be compared with the mighty CREATOR.

oh, that yellow thing? i called it MR COCONUT-FACE. i saw it floating alone.so i saved it! (insert proud face here). ikut aty nk bwk dye balek, tp mama kate i need to let it go, back to the sea. so there goes my mr coconut-face.

nibbly nibble

2012-01-24T00:45:00.002+08:00

besides frogs, im a HUGE FAN of rodents. they are just so adorable, furry and hugable! see that? awwwwwwwwww.

ttbe rasa mcm nak hamster. urmmmmmmm.......

when it slips off

2012-01-21T23:55:00.000+08:00

i wont deny, at tymes, i do feel lonely. it felt as if the whole world is turning its back on me. as if.... im losing everyone that i love. as if, everyone hates me. and as if, i have no one to turn to. at moments like this, i do cry. im a human, after all. but then, i do realised,

Allah ciptakan rasa sunyi di dalam hati kita, agar kita terus mengingatiNya.

you doubled up my happiness

2012-01-19T08:56:00.000+08:00

please move ur eyes directly to the side bar. scroll down a lil. what do u c??? can u c the new CHATBOX??? can u? can u???

as u all know, shoutmix kan da tamatkn their free chatbox. of course, i couldnt afford the one with fee. xde duit la. that's the reason i have to remove the chatbox the last tyme. sedeyh la. sbb rindu nk berinteraksi dgn my readers (ececece, mcm bnyk sgt reader kan). and today, i found a new chatbox service. and of course.. IT'S FREE! x taw la kalu one day yg ni pown nk kna bayar kan. and when that one day comes, u will c this chatbox no longer here. ha8. so for the tyme being, let's just celebrate n use it aite.

waktu nk copy URL dye, nk letak dkt sini, terfikir jugak, NK LETAK K X CHATBOX? sbb.... ade baek n buruk nya chatbox nie. the bad things are; 1st, org bnyk link IKLAN jeeee, 2nd, sometimes, people tend to say things that hurts. tapi, i decided, LETAK je la. because, despite the fact that i might encounter critics, or heart-breaking words, im sure, masih ramai yg SAYANG. there are still many yg memberi kata2 smangat. ramai yg sedar, hamba Allah, pemilik blog ini mmg ade kelemahan. and as a normal human being, yg byk khilaf, kata2 smangat do make me smile. :) it's not that i cant accept critics, cume sometimes, i can b really fragile, and words, when they are use the wrong way, they can do a lot of damage. kan?

anyway, wonderful earthlings, DO WRITE IN THE CHATBOX. u r MOST WELCOME

currently in the midst of happiness. ^^

hippity hop!

2012-01-19T07:00:00.000+08:00

i was tagged, and this was the question ;

what's ur favourite animal and y?

urmmm, setiap kali i answered this kind of question, people will go... HUH? BIAR BETOL! and then when i explain, people will go like.... THAT'S SO DEEP! X DAPAT NMPK POWN KAITAN. n i will be left, sighing. tapiiii, xpe, jgn putus asa. i will still answer this question.

my answer will be... F.R.O.G. ye, saya suke katak. selimut, cadar, alas bantal, pensel box, segala ape yg mampu, sume gmba katak. so the question here, is WHY. kan? the answer is... FROGS ARE REFLECTION OF TRUE LOVE. (does that statement makes u go... HUH? ha7)

mcm ni. to me, frogs kalu kite pndg sekali pndg, dye x comel, x bulu2, n x fluffy mcm kucing, hamster or bunny. dye simple je. tp bile kite tgk ape dye boley buat, dont u feel amazed? dye makan serangga n nyamuk, so it actually helps to control the number of mosquitoes.and dye boley panggil hujan (ok, this reason x boleyh terime, but i dont care, i still wana write it down). lps tu dye boley lompat tinggi2. boley cepat smpai. in another word, what im trying to say is, dont just look on what someone can offer on the surface, but try to look deeper.nway, to me, it's cute. i like how it has this slimy thing on it's skin that makes it shine. i like how it captures insect without even moving, gune lidah je. mantap la. jadi, kesimpulan di sini, saya suka katak sbb... sume sebab di atas. (faham x penjelasan yg berbelit2 nie?)

jalan2, jumpe hairband tu. SUKE!!! setiap hari pown pakai!

yg sblah tu.. FROGGY! ehehehehe

biar hodoh pada pandangan manusia, jgn hodoh di pandangan Allah ^^

i'm tagging EVERYONE especially mintos, kude and ira!

I LOVE U A LOT!

2012-01-18T21:51:00.004+08:00

baru taw ade application PAINT dlm lappy. baru taw mcm mne nk gune. ha8. *kuno kan*
karya pertama (tawu x cantek, tp nk post jugak. lalalalalala) utk mama.

syg mama sgt2. (saje nk PDA dkt sini).

family or friends?

2012-01-18T00:34:00.001+08:00

everytime the word usrah came into my ears, all i can think of is a group of boring girls, with super huge tudung covering half of their body. i imagined them to be sitting together, discussing about how damaged others who are not 'like them'. talking about nothing, but religion-based. boooorrriiinnggggg!

it was until one day, i decided 2 follow a friend, for one usrah session. i was ready to be condemned. to be told how im not qualified 2 b among them. but instead, i was welcomed warmly. they greet me with a smile and before i left, they each gave me a hug. i learned that, usrah is NOT JUST A GROUP DISCUSSION, it's a FAMILY. these girls, with me in the circle, are not just mates or friends, they are my sisters. n no, we dont only discuss about religion, we shared about the things that bothered our mind. we helped each other out. i still remember that one tyme, i dont have enough money to eat (someone took my rm50 note), two girls from my usrah actually shared money and treat me dinner. they also offered more, but i was too embarrassed 2 accept. that's where i realised, if only everyone sees, the beauty of ~~usrah~~ family, im sure they will love it.

i guess, i've seen it and it's part of my duty now, to let others see it too. insyaAllah.

i used to be call an OTTER.

2012-01-15T17:10:00.002+08:00

i went for a visit to a special school wearing that shawl. looking at the students there, it made me realized how fortunate i was to be born healthy. These kids were so innocents. Some were having down syndrome, while others have autism. in one of the class, a girl looked at me, smiling. i smiled back. then she giggled. she said something to me, but i couldnt understand tamil. so she whispered it to my indian partner, and she translated it to me. and this, was what the little girl said :

She thinks u r funny. She said u look like a ZEBRA.

-_-" !

no wonder she's giggling. nway, it's good to c her happy.

but, but, do i really look like a zebra? ha8.

i might cry the whole night, but i know i'll b ok by morning.

2012-01-13T07:43:00.002+08:00

i know it's childish n immature to be removing people from my friend's list on fb. but i have to do what i believe is good for me. even how much i would like to believe that i am strong enough to fight temptations, but i know im not. n that's the reason, why im removing him. i've been hiding his activity from my homepage since 2 weeks ago. but yet, i just cant help thinking of saying hi when i saw him on9. n god knows how hard i restrained myself. yes, he is just a best-friend. but then, i used to b so close to him. used to take him as my guardian angel, my walking-stick and my greatest supporter. but then, he is still a GUY. n when i said i aimed to jage my pergaulan, it puts no exception to anyone. i have to draw my boundaries to all guys. and that includes him. i admit, it took a long time of thinking whether i should remove him or not. it might sounded easy, but trust me, it's not. i guess, i was scared. what if, i disappeared from his memories? he made me feel so imprtant all this while n im scared to loose that feeling. im not ready, to loose my one and only guy best friend. but then, what he said ysterday, startled me.

knape kau mcm xnk bckp dgn aku? da xnk kwn aku eh?

kan kau kate kau nk jage pergaulan, so i believe, this is where we should start. kite xde bnde penting nk ckp, that's y im not saying anything. im respecting you.

how he sounded so matured. how he made me think.i was so embarrassed with myself. how can i b so weak? i was touched, by what he said. lepas fikir2, i realized, it's never easy to do what's right. but it's never impossible. if doing what's right, puts me in a position where i might loose a friend, then i guess, i just have to b strong and opt for doing what's right. after all, a good friend, is a person who helps u 2 do what's right. n the right thing for both of us, is of course to b someone better. to find ways to b closer to Allah. by that, we should never cross the line and boundaries HE has drew.

yes, yesterday, i lost a friend from my fb friend's list, but i knew, i just found a true friend.

and what he said yesterday, made me respect him more than i ever did.

arigato tomodachi!

once an angry bird, FOREVER an angry bird.

2012-01-11T07:21:00.001+08:00

to a dear best friend,

i missed talking, laughing and doing all those silly stuffs with u. i missed just roaming around, and doing nothing. i missed the strumming of the guitar and all the singing. i missed..... gawd... A LOT! i kindda wonder, how life is treating u now. everytime i heard Adele, u will immediately b on my mind.

i guess, i missed us.

a BEST FRIEND is not SOMEONE who is always tagging u around,a BEST FRIEND is SOMEONE who is always HOPING & PRAYING for the best for u.

.true.

blame the hormone, or was it the environment? or the mixture between the two? whatever it is, im currently in a sad mood. *sigh*

lucky?

2012-01-10T23:14:00.000+08:00

You might be married to the worst man on earth, like Asiah who married Pharoah, but it didn't change her goodness or her 'aqeedah.

You might be married to the best man on earth, like Prophet Lut's wife, yet that doesn't mean you're going to Jannah with him.

You might not be married at all, like our beloved Maryam (raa) yet Allah swt places your status above all other women on earth.

Have faith in Allah always & place your full trust in Him. He's the central focal point of our lives.

(Heba El-Haddad)

i found this on fb, n i believe, it is something worth to b shared :)

we all stand on what we believe

2012-01-08T10:17:00.000+08:00

ade boyfriend?
xde.
eh bukan dulu ade k?
dulu. bkn skrg.
bile nk cari laen?
xnk kot.
kenape?
da bosan.
give up dgn cinta eh?
xla. bosan. asyik2 cinta manusia je. skrg nk cari CINTA ALLAH pulak.
habes xnk kawen?
sape kate?
yela, kate da xnk cinta manusia.
bukan xnk. cume skrg nk cari cinta Allah dulu.
bile plak nk cari cinta manusia?
xpe. im sure, kalu i syg Allah, nnty Allah akn syg i. He will send me the right man.

it was just a short conv, but a great reminder to me.

x kesahla org nk kate skema ke, pelik ke, we all have our principes. and this is mine. im not searching for a boyfriend, but a husband. and it's true what people said,

DALAM MENCARI YG SOLEH, KITE KENE MENJADI SOLEHAH DAHULU.(and vice versa)

bye bye peeps :)

dont stop if u know u should be moving

2012-01-06T01:37:00.000+08:00

a person said to me :

skrg budget jadi USTAZAH FACEBOOK. status2 nk agama je, nk nasihat org konon. padehal, diri sendiri x betol.

*sigh* Allah je tahu, how it hurts. am i doing the right thing? btol ke ape dye ckp? should i stop here?

it's true, saya x sempurna. banyak khilaf. in fact, the person criticizing me, might be 1000 times better than me. but, should i stop? after taking a long time to think, the answer is... NO! nak tawu knape? sbb... tugas dakwah tu is tugas ALL MUSLIMS. itu tanda kasih syg kite to each other, by reminding one another. Alhamdulillah, to make me feel better, i had a discussion with my naqibah. i found the answer, which to me, soothed my sadness completely. in the Quran, it's written clearly;

Wahai org yg berselimut! bangunlah, lalu berilah PERINGATAN! dan AGUNGKANLAH TUHANmu, dan bersihkanlah pakaianmu, dan TINGGALKANLAH segala perbuatan yang keji, dan janganlah engkau memberi dengan maksud memperoleh balasan yang lebih banyak. Dan kerana TUHANmu, BERSABARLAH. -Al-Mudassir ; 1-7

masya-Allah. it's true what people said, jalan dakwah ni, SUSAH. obstacles banyak. hanye insan2 yg hatinya benar2 mencintai Allah, will have the strength to go through it. Syafiqah, try and ask urself, how much is ur LOVE towards ur religion. if u love it with all ur heart, then proves it. jadi kuat sikit. (ini basically is monolog luaran ok).

Imam Hasan Al-Basri once said :

Sesungguhnya apabila aku menasihati kamu, bukanlah bererti akulah yang terbaik dalam kalangan kamu, bukan juga yang paling soleh dalam kalangan kamu, kerana aku juga pernah melampaui batas untuk diri sendiri. Seandainya seseorang itu hanya dapat menympaikan dakwah apabila dia sempurna, nescaya tidak akan ada pendakwah, maka akan jadi sedikitlah orang yang memberi peringatan.

conclusion, i know how imperfect i am. but i'm trying to b a better person. infact, everyone is. i do realised, im not an angel. i have weaknesses and flaws. i can be really weak some times and i do fall for temptations. but i believe, as long as i try, Allah is there to help me. n i also believe, that we should be helping one another. but still, thank u for menegur. insyaAllah, i will try to improve myself. :)

jaoh lagy jalan tarbiyah, x layak rsenye jd ustazah. tppppp, doaknla ye. seronok jgak kalu dapat jdi doktor + ustazah. amiin :)

awwwwww

2012-01-06T00:47:00.001+08:00

i found this on fb. it's just so friggin' CUTE that i have to share with ALL OF YOU wonderful mammals. :)

‎Jika awak cari wanita yg cantik... bukan sy org nye..Jika awak cari wanita yg update.. bukan sy org nye..
Jika awak cari wanita yg kaya.. bukan sy org nye..
Jika awak cari wanita yg bekedudukan.. bukan sy org nye..
Jika awak cari wanita yg sopan santun,lembut.. mungkin juga bukan sy org nye..
Jika awak cari wanita yg ingin awak pimpin..... awak boleh cari sy...
Sy akan ada untuk awk jika awk ingin memimpin sy ke jalan ALLAH S.W.T ..

sweet kan? even thought it's not all true. i mean, i have a strong feeling im CHANTEK, UPDATE, KAYA, BERKEDUDUKAN, SOPAN, SANTUN, and all other good things la. ha7. should i add FABULICIOUS??? naaah, im just being plain ridiculous. it's 1 am after all. so, ignore all the vain statements. just focus on the phrases UP THERE. thank u. chiao.

im a princess with or without it

2012-01-02T11:16:00.000+08:00

when mama said we were going to a wedding ysterday, i was like, 'YAY!!!! WEDDING!' (for certain reason, sgt suke pg wedding). so quickly rushed pg wardrobe, and... ARGGHHHHH! BAJU PRINCESS HILANG! mama n i called this one baju as baju princess bcoz.... not telling. nway, devastated gyler. i remmbered how long i have to wait just for SALE to come n for me to b able to get my hands on the dress. *sedeyh*.

ok, enuf with my so-called-tragic story. of course, im not gonna let a baju stopped me from going kan (melodramatic). so i decided to just put on a black jubah (mama gave me for my bday) n a simple floral-printed shawl. with a handbag and stilettos that matched my handbag... IM READY! yay me! (tepuk tgn) after all,

Clothes are made so i could take good care of my aurat and dignity. not make me beautiful. i am beautiful because ALLAH made me so.

a letter to DWARF, from city of LOVE

2012-01-02T09:14:00.001+08:00

Assalamualaikum mawar islam :) ,

hey! i miss u babe. it's been a long tyme kan x jmpe2, chill2 same2?

setiap hari pown when im free, i'll take tyme to read ur blog. i guess that's the only way for me to catch-up with ur perkembangan. n im HAPPIE, u r doing so well. DEAN'S LIST EVERY SEMESTER? siap masuk mcm2 pertandingan n menang pulak tu. wow!

i wanted to text u and call, tp takot kau bz. u know, everytime i talked to Mum, we always talk about u :) how successful u r and how happy we r. lgy2, about ur plan, flying to the state. *i know i shoudlnt mention about this, tp x kire!* we really hope u get it, even thought itu akn mnjaohkn kite lgy la kan. :) tapi... as i said earlier, A GIRL HAS TO DO WHAT A GIRL HAS TO DO :)

nway, i bumped into ur post titled TERRIFIED, BUT.... xtaw knape, aku pown rse the sadness u felt. i mean, susah study tu sume kan. (mayb in a way, it seems like i dont really get u, but i do). nway, im feeling the same way. sort of. aku x suke sgt PAEDS posting. i LOVE KIDS, but it's a heart break for me to watch them crying and suffering in pain. setiap kali pg ward, my mind wont b there. dye mcm lari tmpat laen nk cari serenity. as a result, aku selalu blur dlm ward. n i think, my prof pown mnyampah tgk aku blur (sedeyh). n im stuck in this posting for another 1 month 2 weeks. setiap hari pown berdoa i'll b stronger to step into that ward n cepatlaaaa posting ni habes. in a way, aku da x tahan. at tymes, rse mcm nk ponteng wardround kan. lgy2 tgk ward yg ventilation pown dahsyat. burung2 makan makanan patient. kotor btol. mmg xnk pg ward. tpp xnk kna bar dari exam. plus, nnty xdpt pahala sabar. :) heeee.

i do realised, skrg da mcm trend islamic post kat fb kan. infact, almost everywhere. in a way, aku happie! sbb at least, bukak fb pown ade reminder for me. tp betol, bnyk sgt, sort of suffocating. ade yg extreme sgt, smpai mcm condemning. to me la, islam tu mudah, cantek, n sgt penyayang. it doesnt condemn nbdy. im thankful that there are a lot of people out there to remind us through our steps. but in the end, the choice of path is mine. Rasulullah once said, "Ikutlah fatwa HATI, yang baik itu MENENANGKAN hati dan yang BURUK itu MENGGELISAHkn hati". so, do what u believe n KNOW is right. as long as x langgar syariat :) we have AlQuran n Hadith as guidelines kan :) dont let people make islam looks so constricting to u, bcoz it is not. infact, it's too beautiful to have any flaws. :) plus, Rasulullah s.a.w said: “ Kamu lebih mengetahui tentang urusan keduniaan kamu sendiri.”

ok, da x taw ape nk ckp. actually... BANYAK nk ckp! tp nk ckp depan2. nk peluk2 kau, nk lompat2 dpn kau, lps tu mmbebel bnyk2. have all the girls talk we usually have. :)

aku saje tulis bnde nie, 1st, bcoz im bored n i feel like writing. 2nd, i like writing 'letter-kind' of thingy. 3rd, I WANT U TO KNOW THAT U R STILL IN MY MIND. sorrie sbb kkdg x reply wall kau. serious x perasan. plus, notifications x bgtaw ape2 pown. :( not my fault. ha8

last (janji!), be STRONG! oh, ni sbnrnye shout out for myself jgak. esok ade another ward round *palpitation*. i was reading this one article, when i found this :

Rasulullah saw. bersabda: “Mukmin yang kuat lebih baik dan lebih dicintai oleh Allah daripada Mukmin yang lemah. Segala sesuatunya lebih baik. Tampakanlah terhadap hal-hal yang bermanfaat bagimu dan minta tolonglah kepada Allah dan janganlah engkau menjadi tak berdaya.” (Muslim)

ps : do u remmber the tyme i x tutop aurat? u were there to remind me in doing what's right. that's what true friends do. so this tyme around, aku nk jd true friend kau. nk jd ur supporter. (walopon x la support ape kan). just bygkan je la aku dgn pompom, cheering for u rite here.
pss : kalu free, TEXT LA AKU! x pown call ke. x rindu aku ke? :)
psss : i love u A LOT!
pssss : nnty balek kl, weekends, free, TELL ME! nk jmpe, bg adiah bday
psssss : sorrie la pnjg sgt
pssssss : write la entry for me too *blush*
psssssss : abaikn pssssss.

n oh, aku taw kau x emo! :) u r not the EMO kind. org emo mne boley dpt dean's list berturut2 kan :)

bye!

i'll let u go, i wont cry. PROMISE!

2011-12-31T23:24:00.000+08:00

it's time to wave mr. 2011 goodbye. honestly, im enthusiasted to meet mr.2012, but im not sure whether im ready to let mr.2011 go. to me, it has been one roller-coaster ride (well every year is). but this time, it was a little different. I believe, 2011, is the year i grew up the most. the year where i met all the wrong people, made all the wrong decisions and screw up my life. but at the same time, it's also the year where i met the right people who guided me to a better path.

when 2011 first started, i was this confused girl who believed that there's no happy ending. that true love does not exist. life was full of enjoyment, but it always ended with loneliness. it wasnt any ordinary loneliness. it was this REALLY LONELY kind of loneliness.(not sure whether u can understand).

but half-way through the year, i learnt, that as long as i have Allah, i WILL NEVER be lonely. i've learnt that, happiness is not just about enjoying life, but to live life fully in full-filling my akhirat. and i believe, im now a stronger person.

yes, 2011 has been a good tarbiyah to me. Alhamdulillah.

of course, every year, we all have this new 'azam' right?
well i have mine too.
and u know what it is?

MUJAHADAH. i want to take good care of myself. jage pergaulan, percakapan, pemakaian, semualah. plg penting... HATI! i want to focus and excel in my study, be a good daughter, and of course, a good muslim! :) i do realised, it's not the easiest thing to do, tapi as a muslim, NEVER GIVE UP RITE? yg penting, NIAT. i'll try my best. may Allah helps me. ^^

dear readers, happy stepping into a new year. may we b a better person :)

sick no more

2011-12-26T17:22:00.002+08:00

im getting better. Alhamdulillah. batuk da makin kurang. a lil headache now n then. but still, Alhamdulillah. siap dapat pg wedding lgy. dapat dress up. dapat use my new stilettos n new handbag :)

so tell me, how can i not be in cloud 9?

if only u were here

2011-12-25T09:52:00.002+08:00

listen to this song,

ya Allah, rindu nya aku pada Rasul-Mu.

he's the one

2011-12-24T20:01:00.001+08:00

i think, im clueless when it comes to RELATIONSHIP. honestly.

1) I cant bring myself to text the other person EVERY DAY
2) I dont even know what i should do for a date
3) I wont let the other half to touch me. not even my hand.
4) Putting the other person pict as my dp pict?
5) Seeing each other everyday?? errrr.

and should i list more?
seriously, when most of my friends told me what they did with or for their partner, all i could say is, I'M SUPPOSED TO DO THAT?

in another word, i wont make a good girlfriend. im clueless.

that's not really true. i mean, im not that clueless, it's just that... im keeping all those SWEET stuffs for my HUSBAND. after all, that's one way for me to show him, that he's the special one. ^ ^

2011-12-23T06:41:00.000+08:00

.happy.

no one says, it's gonna be easy

2011-12-22T07:47:00.000+08:00

batuk, x hilang lgy. it keeps me awake at night. u cant sleep when ur lungs refuse to let u breath properly kan? in the end, u start ur day feeling tired. and u just cant focus. i guess, that's y my brain shut-down completely in the ward yesterday. instead of doing something to the snake bite patient, all i did was stare. i never, felt this useless before.

i need to compensate my 3 sleepless nights.

syafiqah, get urself together. it's just a cough. it will go away, just believe in that.

i cant be the angel, but i wont end up as a devil

2011-12-20T22:48:00.002+08:00

honestly,
i DO NOT know how to be the perfect GIRL
NEITHER do i know how to be a GOOD FRIEND
i HAVE NO IDEA how to be the BEST SISTER ever
n i think i've FAILED, to be a GOOD DAUGHTER.

i won't lie, it makes me sad.

how exactly, should i do this?

Ya Allah, please give me the strength to do what's right. because currently, i'm not doing it right. and please, do let them know, i cared.

silent treatment

2011-12-19T07:14:00.002+08:00

.in love.

to dwell, or to move on

2011-12-18T19:30:00.001+08:00

i'm tired of spending the tyme on the bed. i have been planning to meet min, but instead, im stuck in bed. so, instead of dwelling over an illness, n trying to sympathize myself, i decided to play dress-up. da lame x buat mcm nie. budget pose sorg2 kan. biala kan. happie kan. ha7. that's the least i can do so i wont feel that sick. nway, i planned to wear this utk jmpe min, tp dsbbkn x boleyh keluar, nnty la. nway, that baju im wearing, it only costs me RM10.50 at COTTON ON. pndaikn wanita ini bershopping *vain alert!* n handbag tu, 1st tyme i saw it, waktu dgn angry bird. pujok2 mama, dapat! yay me!

OK, suare still xde. but that's no reason i shouldn't be in cloud 9 kan?? somewhere out there, ade org yg facing a much worst case scenario. be thankful Syafiqah....say Alhamdulillah, u r still breathing. :)

till death do us apart

2011-12-17T21:09:00.002+08:00

i have been having this weird cough for the past 3 weeks. demam for a week, then ok. but then, last friday, demam start balek. all the doctor said was, my throat was inflammed. but last nite, i woke up at 3 am, with the worst feeling ever. i could hardly lift my head. my whole body was cramping. i tried calling for mama, but my voice would not come out. luckily ade phone, so call mama. she spent the whole nite awake, taking care of me. it felt as if someone was stabbing my head with a sharp knife.

currently, i have no voice. at moments like this, baru tersedar, how precious it is to be able to talk. skrg, mngaji pown x keluar suare. the whole day, tidur, bgn, makan ubat, and tidur balek. that's all. my whole body is aching.

i believe, semua yg terjadi, adalah tarbiyah. smlm, i realised, berape besarnya kasih ibu. i wonder, bile mama sakit nanty, will i do the same thing she did for me last nite? will i stay awake by her side? through losing my voice, i now realised, how precious it is.

smoga, kesakitan ini penghapus dosa2 yg lalu.

doakn sy cepat smbuh ye. doakn i get my voice back. mcm mne nk clerk patient kalu xde suare.

he deserves, that respect.

2011-12-15T11:08:00.002+08:00

their eyes met. she quickly turned into another direction. so did he. but quietly, they were glancing at each other. it was a crowded place, suffocating. for some reason, they always ended up side-by-side. still, she refused to look at him. but deep inside, she was happy, to find someone...like her. she thought, she was out of place. that, wasn't the last encounter. they keep bumping into each other. n each time, she tried not to look. she has no idea what he's thinking, but all she knew is..... she's glad she has the strength to guard her view.

Alhamdulillah.

just maybe

2011-12-15T02:08:00.001+08:00

“A guy and a girl can be just friends, but at one point or another, they will fall for each other…Maybe temporarily, maybe at the wrong time, maybe too late, or maybe forever."-Dave Matthews Band

n i wonder, in which MAYBE, do we belong to?

in the end, it's u that matter.

2011-12-15T01:16:00.000+08:00

which one should i take? the cotton, or the satin?
the cotton, it's more comfy
but satin makes me feel sexy
then take the satin
but why???
heh! take whatever u like! im feeling like ur husband, yg kene carikn u baju tdo

i cant believe i spent nearly 30 minutes (i believe it's actually 40 minutes), just to find the right pair of pajama. in the end, i bought the satin one. but boo me, i then realised, the satin, was not really satin in the inside. so i ended up, having itchiness once i put them on. yeah, im that sensitive.

i should have bought the cotton one. *sigh*
there goes my rm59 for NOTHING!

ferhana, thanx babe for being my temporary "husband". sorry i took so long just to buy something i ended up allergic to. nway, i miss hanging out wit u. just the two of us, like the old days. :)

conclusion, im back to square one. i still need a new pajama.

whatever will be, will be

2011-12-08T07:51:00.001+08:00

Jika mereka sibuk mencari CINTA,biarlah kita sibuk mencari IMAN.
Jika mereka sibuk mencari PASANGAN,biarlah kita sibuk mencari KEREDHAAN.
JIka mereka menangis kerana kecewa BERCINTA,biarlah kita menangis kerana DOSA-DOSA SEMALAM.
Jika mereka cintakan HAMBAnya,biarlah kita cintakan TUHANnya.
JIka mereka mendambakan kehidupan DUNIAWI,biarlah kita dambakan dunia UKHRAWI.

I believe, kalau si dia memang utk kita, he will be there. x payah pening2 fikir whether he is loyal or not, x payah susah2 hack fb dye nk tgk history chat dye, x payah waste tyme stalk2 dye, because if he is just not made for u, he will find other ways to cheat behind u.

there will NEVER, be a guarantee in LOVE. unless, CINTA pada Allah.

in midst of euphoria

2011-12-06T18:05:00.001+08:00

there are many things that make me smile. tolak the fact that i have been having this weird cough for nearly two weeks now. nway, here are a few of me new fav things!

do NOT focus on the books! see what's in between the pages!

in case u r still clueless, im pointing at the ANGRY BIRDS paper clips

(of course im using it as bookmarks la kan)

they are so CUTE!!!!

remember i told u mama bought me 3 sets of doll's cloth?

froggy wore the pajama while i let Bo Peep wears the dress.

this is Bo Peep. the dress is what she is wearing.

adorable aite?!!!!

thank u mama sbb belikn all these cute stuffs!

there, my ecstasy (^^)

im not bleeding, just hurting

2011-12-04T17:13:00.001+08:00

a good song. try listening to it.

they said, tyme can wash away any pain.

they all... lied.

if they were all speaking the truth

i wont be here, HURTING.

aint i?

i can pretend to everyone else, that i dont care when u walked away,

i can pretend i'm numb, porcelain, and feelingless,

but everytime i saw u, u have no idea how i feel like hugging u,

how i missed u at least asking,

"HOW'S EVERYTHING?"

there's no PERFECT dad, but i believe, u r the best for me.

bcoz, Allah always give me the best.

it's funny, how this song has all the right words that i want to say to u.

dinosaur vs horse

2011-12-04T13:17:00.001+08:00

nak kuda la as pet

xnk. nak dinosaur

tapi....what if the dinosaur bite me?

nnty i'll tell the dinosaur.."nanti dpt diabetes la mkn benda SWEET"

awwwwww.

♥

still, a horse it is.

true happiness

2011-12-04T13:04:00.001+08:00

"Dan antara kebahagiaan adalah wanita solehah. Engkau memandangnya lalu engkau kagum dengannya. Engkau pergi daripadanya dan engkau merasa aman dengan dirinya dan hartamu. Dan antara kesengsaraan adalah wanita yang apabila engkau memandangnya, engkau merasa muak, lalu dia mengungkapkan kata-kata kotor kepadamu, dan jika engkau pergi darinya, engkau tidak merasa aman atas dirinya dan hartamu"
(direkod oleh Ibnu Hibban dan lainnnya, Al-Silsilah Al-Sahihah, hadis no.282)

it's true, wanita solehah is one of kebahagiaan anak Adam.

Ya Allah, please let me be one of the joy.

small things that make me feel important!

2011-12-03T11:15:00.001+08:00

i always thought dat blue attire looks cool. mmg cool pown. lagy2 kalu u can put it ON U! ok, i know bnde ni might be the smallest, the remeh-est thing ever for some of u, but it's a huge deal to me. 3 years of torture, non-stop reading and constant headache, at last dapat masuk OT! it makes me realise, the main reason y i wana be in this field. the excitement, the unexpected and the....... idk what else, but i had superb tyme ysterday watching LSCS, BTL and D&C. smpai hari ni pown still happie. tgk je gmba ni, snyum sndiri. for years to come, if there's any second in my life where i regret taking medicine, i will remind myself of the MAGICAL-FIRST-TIME moment i had ysterday.

doakn sy jadi a good doctor ye. :)

cemburu sebab sayang?

2011-12-01T01:38:00.001+08:00

satu benda psl jadi perempuan, we cant help from being a green-eyed monster kan? if u hav no idea what does that means, go open a dict, or google it up. nway, jealousy is part of what's flowing in our veins. kan? and normally, when asked, people will say : CEMBURU TU TANDA SYG. kan? n i was thinking... urm... betol ke?? tp bile fikir balik, it's true. kalu x syg, x peduli, kite xkn rse cemburu. infact, we cant even b bothered.
tapi....

cemburu x bile tgk wanita yg sempurna tertutup auratnya?
cemburu x bile tgk org yg khusyuk n lengkap solatnya?
cemburu x bile tgk anak yg berbakti pd kedua ibubapanya?
cemburu x bile tgk org yg mmpu mnjaga hati dan pandangannya?
cemburu x bile tgk isteri mithali?
cemburu x bile tgk org yg menghafaz Al-Quran?
cemburu x bile tgk org yg soleh dan solehah?

to cut things short,
cemburu x bile nampak org tu lebih SAYANG kan Allah, dpd sayangnya kita pd Allah?

urm urm. Syafiqah, dah tanye hati? biasenye kalu cemburu, pasal ape ye? psl kwn? psl ehem ehem? psl ape ye? *sigh*

we have the tendency to persoalkan kesetiaan org pd kite. we want the people we love to be loyal to us. kan? kan?
i dont know about u, but i do. n i dont think it's wrong. being loyal, is a symbol of love. kan? tapi, tapi, sometimes i kindda wonder, selalu asyik nak orang je setia kat kite, tapi.... kesetiaan kita pada Allah, mcm mana? kalau kite sendiri x mampu setia dekat PENCIPTA kita, mcm mana CIPTAAN yg laen, nk setia kat kite. kan? (eh, bnyk plak kan dalam post nie)

A woman's heart should be so hidden in God that a man has to seek HIM just to find her -C.S Lewis

again, this is a reminder to myself, and to my readers. org kate, kalu kite syg org, kenela kongsi dgn dye bnde yg baik2. kan?
so, dear readers, can u feel my love now? heeeeee (^^)

never to old for ANYTHING!

2011-11-30T11:04:00.001+08:00

i've decided to post another ridiculous entry. in my previous previous previous (i cant remember which one) post, i have mentioned that i bought baby cloth for my Froggy. kan? x pcaye, go scroll down a few posts. nwy, now that froggy has been wearing the same cloth for quite sometime now, mmg terase nak belikn baju baru. surprisingly, last weekend when i came home, mama tunjuk this one paper bag. inside, there were 3 doll clothes! a raincoat, a dress and a pair of pajama. obviously froggy is a HE kan, so xkn nk pakai dress. and i dont think he should be wearing raincoat indoor jugak. so i decided to let him wear the pajama. HE LOOKS AWESOMELY CUTE! while the dress.... i let BoPeep wears it. oh, that's another doll of mine.

this is how froggy looks like in his brand new outfit.

he is so friggin handsome kan!!!

yay! (ok, happie sendiri)

nnty i tgkap gmba BoPeep in her new dress plak. then i'll show it to all of u. (not that it matters, but i like doing it :) )

cheers pretty mammals!

a simple HI!

2011-11-27T22:23:00.001+08:00

sedar x sedar, one year have passed. today, we step into a new year.
Alhamdulillah for all the things i have learnt. may this new year brings more tarbiyah to every one.

to all muslims that i love because of Allah,

happie new year peeps :)

that thin line

2011-11-25T12:11:00.001+08:00

if a person wants my heart,

he must first have my mom's heart.

(^^)>

beauty sleep

2011-11-25T07:38:00.001+08:00

this is basically one pointless post. written 15 mins before my wardround.

the main aim for this entry is to tell the whole word *exaggerating* that i have a new bed sheet.

bought it myself at a super cheap price.

not la dat murah smpai harga rm5 je kan. tp murahla jgak sbb sale 70%

conclusion, i just feel like bragging today. that's all

nothing more, nothing less.

itu dye, my new bed sheet.

bru bersemangat tdo dkt asrama yg 'indah' nie.

froggy pown suke.

n what i love the most is....ade gmbar BIRD!

kalu rindu boleyh tgk. hehehehehe.

*ok, geli geli*

muchas gracias!

(whatever the spelling is)

SHE is a superhero!

2011-11-24T01:30:00.001+08:00

im currently in my 3rd posting, which is.... O&G. i've been dreaming of being a specialist in O&G since i was 11. now that i'm in this posting, going through the works behind the majestic name, my zest grew stronger. yup, the workload is ASTONISHINGLY A LOT, compared to the last 2 postings i've been through. in a week, i have 2 on-calls, tutorials every morning, and classes for hours! but still, i guess, this is where my heart and passion belongs to. so no, im not complaining.

nway, Alhamdulillah, i've just finished my on-call a few minutes ago. my 1st day of on-call..... in the labour room. watching how those women shouted and sweating in pain, straining and pushing their best to get the baby out, i just cant help from feeling how sinful i am towards my mom. it's easy to feel unsatisfied about things, to go againts what ur mom said, and to ignore ur mom. to hurt their feelings, might be the easiest thing to do on earth, but have u ever wonder how difficult it was for her to just bring us to earth? u can c it through videos in youtube on normal deliveries. u can c how painful it was. but still, the video is NOTHING compared to the real event. and Alhamdulillah, i was given the chance to watch it first hand.

bile tgk baby2 tu lahir, i terfikir. waktu kite lahir, dlm tgn kite tergenggam satu amanah, satu tugas. lahirnya seorang bayi, maksudnya lahirlah seorang KHALIFAH. tapi.... berapa bnyk antara kite menjaga amanah tu ye? this question is dedicated to myself too.

teringat firman Allah dalam Al-Quran,

“ Dan tidaklah Aku menciptakan jin dan manusia melainkan supaya mereka menyembahKu." -Az Zariyat, 56-

mama, terima kasih sbb bertahan utk lahirkan kaklong. terime kaseh sbb x putus asa waktu kesakitan tu makan diri mama sendiri. terima kasih sebab bagi kakak peluang jadi anak mama. semoga tersedia satu pintu syurga untuk mama di akhirat nanti. amiin.

stuck in the moment

2011-11-12T22:06:00.001+08:00

i wasnt there to watch the whole event 1st hand. luckily the lens caught it all. whatever it is, im proud of u. my adek woi!!!!

credits to ira yunkay for the pict! smngat beliau bwk bag besar batu bata dgn camera nikon dye.

a sweeper in disguise

2011-11-11T07:01:00.001+08:00

girl : awak lepas SPM dulu keje x?
me : x, abah x bg. awk keje?
girl : keje. teke kite keje ape.
me : waiter? salesgirl? promoter?
girl : x. cleaner
me : seriously?
girl : betol la. dkt UTM.

n today, she is in the clinic with me, clerking patients. it's kindda an eye opener to me. i mean, u never know, all the cleaners that u saw sweeping ur corridor, cleaning ur toilets, who are they actually. they might be actually, smarter than u. moral of the story, never look down on anybody, u never know who they actually are.

agaknya la kan, kalau budak2 UTM yg dulu nmpk dye mnyapu kat corridor, n today nmpk dye pakai lab coat, buat wardround dkt hospital, ape perasaan dorg eh? ha3.

my angry BIRD

2011-11-10T17:12:00.001+08:00

sometimes, when we r angry, kite mudah lupe bnde. kite marah sgt dgn org tu, that we tend to just say out all our hatreds. kite lupe, the person we said bad things at, is....

that same person, who stayed by our side when the whole world were leaving us behind.
that same person, who would laugh WITH YOU when others laugh AT YOU.
that same person, who was there to listen to our complaints and grumbles after our one-bad-day.
that same person, who was worried sick when we said we were not feeling well.
that same person, who drove miles just to see us.
that same person, who refused to believe all the bad things that people said about us.
and most importantly......
that same person, who felt miserable every time things did not work out for us.

so yes, i hate it when im angry. i hate it when i said all the darnest thing i should not be saying. i hate it when a conversation ends with two people feeling so distance from each other. at least, me, feeling distance from u. because i believe, no matter how bad we fight, best friends should always stick with each other. after all, we have been like that for quite a while now aite? why stop now?

last nite, when i sat alone on my bed, it flashed back to me how u offered to chip in money when i was so sad that i had no money for mama's bday. and of course, u were one of the reason, i decided to move on. no matter how things gonna turn out for us in the future, i believe, what we have NOW is more important.

kan? (^^)>

the times when i feel ignored

2011-11-08T22:52:00.000+08:00

sepanjang hari, ade rase x kena. rase mcm sedeyh je. rse mcm lonely. nak kate sbb xde kwn, nipu la tu. i have been surrounded by awesome people the whole day. tapi.... ade something yg rase x kna. for some reason, i have been seating near to my phone the whole day. maybe.... i was waiting for it to ring, or at least beep, telling me im still in ur mind, not forgotten. but u know that despair? when nothing happened. and u just wish, u havent wish what u wished for? if only, i could just ignore the phone, the silent. let my mind be in peace. so i decided to just stare aimlessly at the laptop. wishing something might pops out at my page telling everything is ok. but again, NOTHING. at last, i realized, i havent done somethng. I did EVERYTHING except.... mngadu dkt Dia. today, i belom lgy mnje betol2 dgn Dia. it's time, i seek for peace from Him.

after performing solat2 sunat, i opened the Quran. n u know what was the 1st verse i saw? here,

Sungguh, Kami telah memberikan kepadamu kemenangan yang nyata. Agar Allah memberikan ampunan kepadamu atas dosamu yang lalu dan yang akan datang, serta menyempurnakan nikmat-Nya atasmu dan menunjukkan jalan yang lurus. Dan agar Allah menolongmu dengan pertolongan yg kuat (banyak). Dialah yang telah menurunkn KETENANGN ke dalam hati orang-orang mukmin utk menambah keimanan atas keimanan mereka (yang telah ada). Dan milik Allah-lah bala tentera langit dan bumi, dan Allah Maha Mengetahui lagi Maha Bijaksana.

Masya-Allah. i was so absorbed in trying to be important to someone, that i forgot to make myself important to HIM. a lil note to myself, next tyme, if there's nbdy who makes u feel so insignificant, remember, He is always there to make u feel special.

whatever it is, happie birthday to a special person. i really wish, u have a good day. sorrie if im not a good listener.

can the lonely take the place of you?

2011-11-08T14:44:00.000+08:00

i like the part that said,

let you go and let the lonely in,
to take my heart again

curiosity dont always kills

2011-11-08T03:54:00.000+08:00

i have been lying on my bed since 10.30pm. and now, it's 3.40am. yet, im still wide awake. this is what happen when u spent ur evening napping. so lets just blog to kill the time.

a friend once said that i always bantah what he said. so i took some time to think. u know, there are reasons why i was chosen as a debater in my school. one of it is because, i debate. but then, debating and arguing are two diff things. let me ask u a simple question, if someone tells u some facts, n u think they're wrong, will u just keep quite or will u clarify them? i always enjoy a discussion. i believe, dgn berbincang, we can exchange ideas. n by debating, we can build confidence in ourselves. kite kna yakin atas fakta yg mnjadi hujah. kan? define yakin. well, before u said something, pastikn fakta tu betul, sahih. it's never a good thing to be spreading the wrong thing. kan?

what im trying to say right here is, before u start a discussion, always have an open mind. be ready to listen to diff ideas and opinions. n i believe, the most important thing is, ur niat. if u berbincang dgn niat nk share idea, atas dasar ukhuwah, insyaAllah everyone will benefits. but if ur niat is to just tunjuk pandai, and u just want ur ideas to be accepted, then better forget the whole thing. sebab... kalu fikir nk menang, nk u je betol, susahla, sbb ur facts might not b rite. rite??

akhir kata, im sorrie if berbincang with me seems so impossible. im sorie if i dont easily takes ur words bulat2. i x mintak bnyk, just bukti to show that u r not just pulling my legs. that's all. nway, i always welcome a good discussion, it helps to trigger my brain cells. ^^

the strongest point

2011-11-06T10:58:00.000+08:00

have u seen so many people in one place? all gathering, praising the only ONE, the CREATOR. everytime i listen to the takbir in the morning, rase sayu sgt. lgy kagum bile tgk muslims all over the world solat pagi raya bersama2. during this time u will c, betapa ramainye umat Islam. tapi.... berapa ramai yg akan membanggakan Rasulullah di akhirat nnty? will i b one of them?

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha peeps.
semoga sambutan ini menjadi satu tarbiyah, bukan platform mmbuat kemungkaran. We are here to praise the CREATOR, not the CREATION.

Nak belajar rajin2 la, nk bawak mama depan Kaabah. insyaAllah.

things they dont say out loud

2011-11-02T15:40:00.000+08:00

awwww.

is it u?

2011-11-01T22:58:00.000+08:00

"Nikmat yang paling berharga selepas nikmat IMAN dan ISLAM, adalah memiliki sahabat yg soleh. jika kamu mendapati wujud kasih sayang antara kamu dengannya, maka peganglah ia bersungguh - sungguh."

- Saidina Umar Al-Khattab

goodbye... maybe?

2011-11-01T00:59:00.002+08:00

before i can seek for someone yg know how to make himself exclusive, i must myself be able to do that 1st. org kite x boleyh ubah, but i can always try to change myself into a better person. org kalu xnk berubah, n if i dont like how they behave, i can choose to just walk away and leave. but kalu diri sendiri xnk berubah.... susahlah. i cant walk away from myself. or.... can i?

how will we end?

2011-10-31T23:20:00.000+08:00

mlm ni im alone in my room. heeeee. roomie ade on-call, so here i am, doing all sort of things to entertain myself. and of course, rakan setia mestila FACEBOOK kan. nway, i was browsing here n there when i found this page called BOOK OF QUOTE and i bumped into a few cute quotes. but this one, attracts me the most :

if only i can say this pict is nothing but craps. i know.... it's speaking the truth.

rite?

punch away that spare tyres

2011-10-29T21:12:00.001+08:00

i still remember, running 7 laps, yet still breathing. that, was some time ago. the days where running, was passion. but then, once u stop running, u just lost almost everything. the momentum, the strength, the stamina. i've been neglecting my running shoes for months now. n yes, i miss them. now, 4 laps, has turned me breathless. *sigh*

syafiqah, it's time u start running again. do u know that feeling? after a hard day, running just dissolves everything. the pain u felt on ur first lap, slowly dissapeared. ur limbs become numbs. and after that, everything else, seems.... so freee. as if, u r running without effort. and when u stop, all u can feel is.... satisfaction :) i miss that sweet feeling of freedom.

sail away

2011-10-24T14:53:00.000+08:00

first day of PCM posting. ohhhh.
started the day at 6.30 am. i dont know for what reason, i was appointed as the group leader. omg! at first i thought they were joking whey they said out my name. but then..... they were COMPLETELY serious.
honestly, im scared to hold any jawatan. sebab? setiap jawatan yg kite pgg, is amanah. a trust. not something u can play around with. regardless how small and insignificant the position u r holding, but as long as u r in it, people have certain expectations on u. and the last thing i want to do, is to dissapoint my group mate. xpela, setiap bnde yg terjadi, bersebab. maybe, this is my opportunity to teach myself to be more responsible. to give my very best. insyaAllah.

and i do realise, if anytime i have any difficulties, i can always turn to Allah. im sure, He will be there to listen and help.

teringat doa ketika solat Dhuha :

Ya Allah, sekiranya ada rezekiku di langit maka turunkanlah; dan jika ada rezekiku di Bumi, maka keluarkanlah; dan jika SUKAR maka PERMUDAHKANlah, dan jika ianya HARAM maka BERSIHkanlah, dan jika ia JAUH maka perDEKATkanlah, dan jika ia DEKAT maka perMUDAHkanlah; dengan kebenaran Dhuha-Mu, keagungan, keindahan, kekuatan dan kekuasaan-Mu. Amiin.

may everything turns out well. insyaAllah.

when u feel, so far from heaven

2011-10-21T08:30:00.000+08:00

for months i wonder, what happened to u? should i text u and asked if u r alright?
u might think, i have erased everything about u from my life, but only Allah knows how worried i am of u.
tell me, when was the last time we looked into each other eyes, faced each other, and talked to each other?
not just a small hi, but a real conversation.
if only i know what to do to make u c, how much u meant to me, will u do the same to me too?
it's not that i dont wana contact u, but i am so scared of the result.
what if.... it hurts?

i just want u to know, kakak loves u. and im sure, Allah is taking good care of u. well, He always does.

no one is perfect. NO ONE

2011-10-21T01:21:00.000+08:00

i couldnt sleep the whole night wondering what will happen tomorrow.
will everything be ok? will tomorrow brings laughter?

it was the longest 1 hour n 10 mins of my life. my hands were trembling, and my mind was a total mess. every medical terms were juggling in my head. all the facts were jumbling here n there. all i can do was to pray hard, may Allah has mercy on me. i prayed may He makes things easier for me, instead of giving me easy things.

as i entered the crowded ward, n i was led straight to a bed right at the center of the ward, i knew, Allah has answered my prayer. when the doctor told me to inspect the abdomen, my heart leaped with joy. yes, i missed a few steps. and those were the important steps. but i guess, what's done is done. i have tried my best. what ever the outcome will be, pass or fail, it will b a good lesson to me.

n it's true what i once read,

Do not pray for easy lives. Pray to be stronger men.

John F. Kennedy

get it? x?

mcm nie la, JGN DOA NK BENDE MUDAH, TP DOALAH SMOGA ALLAH PERMUDAHKN URUSAN. sbb tanpa izin Allah, bnde yg MUDAH pown, boleyh rase sgt susah sekiranya Allah x izinkan. dan sekiranya Allah nk bg pertolongan, benda yg SUSAH n COMPLICATED mcm mne pown, insyaAllah, terase sng utk dlakukan. :)

happie living people. ^^

i am getting tired.

2011-10-19T21:39:00.000+08:00

lately, hati mcm teruji. my strength pown as if depleting. from out of nowhere, ttbe teringat dia. all the memories flooded back. n yes, they messed up my mind. it drained out all the peacefulness in me. susahnye nk lupekan. knape lah susah sgt?

ya Allah, please help me to delete all this mess in my heart. i just wana move on. banyakkanlah aku dalam mengingatiMu agar tiada ruang untuk meningatinya.

im not shakespear.

2011-10-19T01:00:00.000+08:00

if, and only if, doing what's right is as easy as how it's said.
how i wish, i can keep on doing what's best.
stay put, and never fall.

if.... things are that easy, i wont feel as bad as how im feeling now. kan?

maybe, just maybe, im the weak one.
boo me.

ya Allah, please gives me the strength to do what's right. i wont lie, it's not easy.

R stands for RANDOM-ness

2011-10-14T09:37:00.000+08:00

i was strolling down the crowded floor, eyes on the kiosks at the sides. one of them, caught my eyes. there, i saw it! hanging! so small yet so adorable! awwww. i fell in love immediately and i know i have to have it. even thought my right mind was telling me it's a complete waste of money, but i could not care less. so there, i bought it - that frog-printed baby cloth! it was so CUTE! i cant resist it. yes, i do realise i dont have a baby which means........... i have no idea what to do with it. but who cares, right? after much of thinking, i decided to let froggy wears it. i'm sure he likes it. he smiled after all. :)

there, froggy in his new cloth!

CHOMEL KANNNNNNN!

(tepuk tgn gedik2!)

i want more baby clothes!!!!

yes, i am that random.

all the single ladies, UT UR HANDS UP!

2011-10-12T22:48:00.004+08:00

♥

you can be my red ANGRY BIRD

2011-10-10T09:48:00.002+08:00

mama belikan set angry bird! weeee. mmg super duper excited bile keluarkn dari kotak. sgt happie okay! biase tekan2 dkt skrin, ni betol2. come, let the boasting session starts now.

nampak x? nampak x?

sume character berkumpul!!!!

n this last one.....

that's US. ^^

kalu rase nk try maen, jmpowtla dtg rumah. heeeee.

yes, i miss that.

2011-10-06T09:35:00.002+08:00

da lame hati terpaut to this writer. for some reason, i like the ways she puts her string of words in a line. after reading her book, i started reading her blog. n guess what i found? this poem, touched my heart so deep. i believe, i must share it with my readers. the title of her post is, LELAKI YANG DIRINDUI. here,

Dulu,

Bila disebut lelaki

Wanitanya mendongak megah

Lelaki kami Asadullah, Saifullah

Tokoh ramai tak terkira

Kini,

Bila disebut lelaki

Wanitanya menunduk lemah

Tokoh kami sedikit sekali

Ramainya boneka Yahudi

Dulu,

Bila disebut lelaki

Wanitanya tenang di hati

Lelaki kami menjaga, melindungi

Kini,

Bila disebut lelaki

Wanitanya mahu cabut lari

Lelaki khianat , perogol bersiri

Dulu,

Bila seorang wanita teraniaya

Sepasukan kuda putih membela

Al-Mu'tasim kebanggaan wanita

Kini,

Ramai wanita suci dipenjara

Diperkosa minta dibela

Lelaki tunduk tak bertenaga

Dulu,

Bila wanita di bawah jagaannya

Lelaki memagari sehabis daya

Tiada siapapun berani menggoda

Kini,

Bila wanita di bawah jagaannya

Lelaki tak kisah auratnya terbuka

Wanitanya dibiar bebas, binasa

Dulu,

Lelaki menggadai harta dan nyawa

Untuk mengangkat kemuliaan agama

Kini,

Lelaki menggadai ketinggian agama

Demi nafsu , dunia dan seisinya

Dulu,

Lelaki bermatian mencipta sejarah

Kental berjihad , tekun berdakwah

Kini,

Lelaki hanya menyanjungi sejarah

Diri bermalasan, tenaga tak dikerah

Dulu,

Lelaki memperjuangkan Deen dan Ummah

Al-Farouq , Zunnurain mati terbunuh

Kini,

Lelaki memperjuangkan diri dan kroninya

Hingga sanggup membunuh

Dulu ,

Lelaki bersatu menghadapi musuh

Angkatannya kuat dan teguh

Kini,

Lelaki berpuak dan berpecah

Sesama sendiri saling bertelingkah

Kembalilah lelakiku

Pada kelelakianmu

Kami rindukan lelaki dulu

Acuan Madrasah Rasul

written by,

FATIMAH SYARHA MOHD NOORDIN

Petikan daripada Novel Syabab Musafir Kasih

sayu hati kan? slalu org bila tgk, nmpk je how depleted akhlak muslimah skrg. x tutup auratlah, liar lah. mcm2. but brape ramai yg sedar, how the numbers of muslimin pown berkurang.

i pray hard, smoga the guys in my life, my dad, my lil bro, n infact, pemilik hati selepas Allah dan Rasul adalah one of those lelaki yg dirindui. lelaki yg bukan mncari sanjungan manusia, tetapi sanjungan penghuni langit. insyaAllah.

scroll down.

2011-10-03T13:33:00.004+08:00

i found this on someone's page on facebook.

see, im not being a grumpy person after all. i was just being.... a girl. :p

♥

what's love, without commitment.

2011-10-02T09:13:00.000+08:00

someone once told me,

KALAU BOLEY, NAK CARI PASANGAN NNTY, CARILA IKHWAN2 YG TERLIBAT DGN USRAH JUGA. HATI- HATI MEREKA DAH DITARBIYAH.

all i can do, was nod and smile. nothing came out of my mouth.yes, im out of word.
bila fikir, mmg betul. most ikhwan i knew, pergaulan mereka terjaga. cara berckp pown berhemah. sng kata, dorg pandai jaga kehormatan.

tapi, Allah ada sebut dalam surah Luqman ayat 34,

Dan tiada seseorang pun yang betul mengetahui apa yang akan diusahakannya esok (samada baik atau jahat) dan tiada seorang pun yang dapat mengetahui di bumi negeri manakah ia akan mati. Sesungguhnya Allah Maha Mengetahui, lagi Amat Meliputi PengetahuanNya.

x semestinya, org yg hari ini nmpak jahat, akan berakhir dgn kejahatan jugak. kan? not that im disagreeing with the statement given to me. mmg betol, hati2 yg dah dtarbiyah, adalah lebeyh baek. tapi.... xpela, i leave everything to Allah. i believe, siapa sahaja yg Allah wrote as my pemilik hati, is the best for me.

till then. toodles.

a song without rhythm

2011-09-23T01:13:00.000+08:00

i cant remmber, when was the last time i heard u strumming the guitar.
and yeah, it seems so long ago since u sang the last song.
im starting to miss that bubbly, insane person i once knew.

mohawk, get well soon. u have been sick for too long now.

define weak!

2011-09-13T23:00:00.000+08:00

ape perasaan, kalu kite korbankan hujung minggu, instead of balek rumah dan ubati homesick, kite pg buat wardround, n all we get is a patient shouting in our face. smpai nurse2 pown pandang terkejot. lps tu patient2 laen pown toleh utk tgk kite kna tempik. x cukop dgn tu, slps spend smpai hampir 1 pagi dalam ward, amek darah sume. tido lewat, bgn awal, n x tdo spnjang hari smpai malam tu, malam tu plak patient buat hal lagy. setengah jalan tgh clerk, dye kate dye xnk jwb soalan. lps tu membebel2 kate dye rse medical students mganggu. kite da la penat, esok kelas lagy, presentations, quiz, pbl, segala benda la kan. n there he is, saying that medical students were not doing their best. *sigh*

so, tell me. if u were in my position, dont u feel like cursing these people? x rase k nk doakan dorg x sembuh? msty ade kan? we r human. come on. when people treat us badly, hati msty terluke. btol? kalu x, u r one extraordinary person. marila buat medik. of course i feel like hentak2 that patient, rse nk maki dye balek, nk sound n buat sgale benda yg menakutkn dkt dye kan. tapi, when i actually stop, n think, is that how my parents brought me up? to treat others badly, just because they hurt u? nope. if i did that, i have just prove to them, that my parents failed to bring me up.

even though it hurts to be scolded, when ur intention is to actually help these people to get better. u have to bear something in ur mind, LIFE MIGHT B UNFAIR TO U, BUT ALLAH IS ALWAYS FAIR. even though that pagi i was yelled by that uncle, dsbbkn that frustration, i actually went to this other uncle. sape sangke, uncle SGT SPORTING, he let me do ANY EXAMINATION ON HIM. mlm tu plak, he was transferred to another ward. while in my process of searching for him, i bumped into this very nice doctor who was on on-call. he actually let me follow his ward round n let me take blood from his patients. yes people, that nite, i actually poke 7 people. ha7. Alhamdulillah. if only that uncle didnt yelled at me, surely i wont meet this other patient, n i wont meet this doctor n of course, i wont get the chance to do venepuncture on REAL HUMAN. kan? see how GREAT ALLAH is?

n that uncle who babbled at me about how he is annoyed with medical students, well, i chose to keep on smiling at him. he can treat me badly, but i promise myself to treat him nicely. u know why? sbb kite jage HUBUNGAN dgn manusia, bukan utk disukai manusia, tapi utk, DISAYANGI ALLAH. betol? :) nway, dsbbkn xdapat clerk dye la, i berjaya clerk this other patient who manage to get me 9/10 for my history taking assessment. :) Alhamdulillah.

let me tell u the truth, the nite i kene bebel dgn dat uncle, i was SO FRUSTRATED. mane x, malu la, patient laen pandang kite kna bebel. nurse pandang, doct laen sume pandang. jatuh air muke. i actually cried when i walked out of the ward. xdela nk nanges dlm ward kan. itu sgt memalukan. smbil turun tangge hospital, air mate berlinang (mcm dalam filem). dalam hati mmg benci yg sgt besar dkt pakcik tu. so i decided, balek asrama, ambil air smbhyang, solat, n open the Quran. n u know what was the 1st verse i saw as i opened the Quran? here,

Wahai orang - orang yang beriman! Jauhilah banyak dari PRASANGKA, ssghnya sebahagian dpd prasangka itu DOSA, dan janganlah kamu mencari-cari KESALAHAN orang lain, dan jangan lah ada di antara kamu MENGUNJING sebahagian yang lain. Apakah ada di antara kamu yang suka memakan daging saudaranya yang sudah mati? Tentu kamu merasa jijik. Dan bertakwalah kepada Allah, sungguh Allah Maha Penerima TAUBAT, Maha Penyayang.

-Al-Hujurat, 12-

There, right to my face. why did i even think of bad stuffs about the uncle? Masya-Allah. ^^

Bile dtimpa mcm2 kesedihan, n we really need someone to talk to, sometimes without us realising we r actually adding a burden to somebody else's shoulder. sbb tu la, it's better to mngadu to Allah. He's always there to listen, n He gives u the answer, in so many ways. just wait n c. :)

PEOPLE MIGHT DISSAPOINT YOU, BUT ALLAH NEVER.

tripple the goodness ^^

2011-09-08T01:07:00.000+08:00

it's been 3 years and i believe, we r still counting. no way im letting this friendship stops here. u know, while we were kindda 'away' from each other, i actually wrote a poem for both of u. seriously, it's made SPECIALLY for the both of u. da lame simpan. nk bagi, but im looking forward for the rite moment. n i guess, this is it. oh, im tired of English, so let's go Bahasa for this one. it's kindda long, but i hope u will understand what im trying to say.

sahabat,
dalam mencari Allah, seringkali aku terjatuh
tersungkur dan ada kalanya, aku terlalu lemah utk kembali berdiri
Namun aku sedar,
Allah itu sentiasa ada
Aku yang jauh, aku yg buta
Namun aku rindu untuk mencintai-Nya

Jadi sahabat,
Sekiranya hari ini pintu hati ini diketuk oleh-Nya
Sekiranya hari ini aku mnjumpai kekuatan utk berlari menuju-Nya
Aku akan gembira sekiranya engkau turut serta dlm larianku
Namun sekiranya larian ini terlalu berat buatmu
Cukuplah sekadar engkau berada di tepi menyokong larianku

Jangan risau teman,
Sejauh mana pun aku berlari
Aku masih insan yg kau kenali
Mungkin ada saatnya kita akan rasa seolah2 sgt jauh di antara satu sama lain
Namun ingatlah, jarak itu hadir, kerana kita yang menciptanya.

Ketahuilah sahabat,
Temanmu ini amat menyayangimu
Dalam doaku aku berharap
Agar aku mampu menjadi sahabat sejatimu
Iaitu sahabat yg apabila kau tatap wajahnya
Terdetik hatimu untuk mengingati Allah.

ikhlas dari hati : Nurul Syafiqah Noor Azman ^^

if the content is too much for u to read, let me summarize it for u. basically i just wanna say, i love u girlfriends :)

party liar?

2011-09-07T05:30:00.000+08:00

da raya ke-6 kan, so before life gets super hectic, mstyla mmbuat open houz. knape tahun ni open houz mcm diff? sbb this tyme, I COOKED!!! bersemangat tu bgn pagy, masak rendang, pastu since the nite before buat puding smpai pakse Ira stayed up wit me smpai 2 am. i had one horror tyme nk masak nasi impit, tp naseb baik, it's edible. sume penat hilang when my fav crowd dtg. terharu ok dorg sanggup turun from Rawang, Shah Alam, Kajang n even from Seremban all the way to my dear Ampang. ini yg syg sgt2 kan. heeeee ^^

kite stopkn org yg tgh makan for 'FAMILY' photo :)

td dlm rumah, skrg luar rumah pulak. lalalalalala

ika.syaf.khaty

we have known each other since..... bile eh??? form 3
masok Sains Seri Puteri yg indah tu pown same2 kan :)

walopown dlm perangkaan before Asar da habes, but when fun tymes come, time flies mcm lipas kudung. so x perasan masa. taw2, lpas asar baru habes. tp happie sbb dpt solat jemaah asar same2. mmg best la bergotong royong nk bentang sejadah. yg guys pulak bergado2 sape nk jd imam. last2, dinosaur dtg depan. sejuk perut ibu mngandung.

special thanx to.... mohawk (oh, da lame x gune this word) kerane kesudian dtg 1 hour early. lps tu mmbuat kerje mngalahkn tuan rumah (sbb tuan rumah xnk lengan jubah basah bile cuci pinggan). terime kaseh sbb kedepan kebelakang bwk jag air, lps tu duduk lame2 dkt dapur mncuci pinggan. siap tlg mama bergadoh dgn ais tu kan (oh peristiwa 6 pax). ha4. thanx jugak sbb puji puding dgn rendang tu (better ikhlas ye). thanx jgak tlg layan tetamu sbb tuan rumah da blur. n thanx sbb tlg kemas2. mama pown kagum. bile mama kagum, of course tuan rumah akan terharu kan. ha3. maaf kalu rse dibuli. xde niat pown. heeeee.

ika.boy.mohawk

dorg berdua kat blkg tu mmg mcm tu. kang kalu marah, sedeyh plak. hish

akhir kate, at the end of the day, i was friggin' tired but happie ssgt. smpai arini pown snyum2 sndiri bile teringat korg sume merepek. mcm nk pecah rumah dgn riuh korg :) insyaAllah, nnty kte jmpe lgy! n oh, thanx harith utk hadiah hari jadi yg lmbat itu. ha3. baju kurung tersebut telah slamat dpakai ke hospital utk tgk patients.

ukhuwah fillah abadan abada! amiin.

once in a blue moon

2011-08-30T18:01:00.004+08:00

people, it's SYAWAL!!!!

waving bubye to Mr. Ramadhan is not just about saying goodbye. it's about reminiscing all the good things we have learnt through out the holy month.

smoge 29 hari yg kite telah lalui berjaya mnjadi tarbiyah in shaping us into a better muslim.

selamat mnyambut syawal people,

dlm bergembire, jgn smpai mensia2 kan pahala ibadah yg telah kite lakukan slame sebulan hanye utk keseronokkan SEHARI :)

key ell ae and jee spells KLANG!

2011-08-21T23:23:00.001+08:00

im now officially a tengku ampuan rahimah hospt resident! dah x tggl dkt kolej 6 um lgy da. for a year, i'll b stuck here. clinical years start now yaw! am i happie? well, half of this n that la kan. rindu kot UM. 3 tawn kat situ taw. nway, 1st impression of this place. OMG! horror-ness!

dtg sini, 1st terkejut bcoz.... girls n guys are in ONE BLOCK! bygkan! kalah UK taw. pastu corridor open space, meaning nk g mne2 kna tutup aurat lgkap la kan. (dgr berat, tp kalu bersgguh2 boley punye. insyaAllah). n then, gagak x payah ckp la. their headquarters kot kat sini. toilet plak, shower tuuu, sume pintu x leyh tutop! adoih. then, air plak, shower2, air makin kecik. suspen je la. dlm bilik plak, pintu almari x leyh tutup, lock patah. oh. sng cite. on 1st impression, this place SHUCK completely. hospt pown kalu compare to ppum, this place is like... urgh! but then, b thankful la Syafiqah. life is not always about cherries n creams kan? once in a while, u need 2 play in the puddle. :)

nway, im actually quite fine with nearly everything. to start with, im blessed to b put in a room at the ground floor. means, less going up n down the stairs. second, my room is right infront of the pengampai. hujan sume sng. toilet pown dkt gyler. n bcoz my room is kindda kat end of the block, jaoh dari guy's rooms. sbb dorg kat the other end. the room pown kindda spacious. plus, i like the number, 107 (my bdate is 10th july.kecoh plak). my roomie plak is my bestfriend @ husband. ha3. let me bring u around my room, well virtually of course.

pandai x lukis plan bilik? the green bed is my side.

(i dont like green but my bedsheet for the tyme being is green)

my side is on the right!

nnty ade duit nk share dgn husband beli karpet ltk tgh2 tu la :)

another shot

tempat princess beradu. weeeee.

smoge mencurah2 kerajinn di sini

so that's my room sweet room.

not bad huh? sbnrnye, xla bad sgt this place. except that we were reminded ade perompak bru dtangkap last week, n ade kes bunuh a few months earlier. itu je. despite all those things, xde ape pown kan? heeee. ok, dat's all, i think what i should say is : Alhamdulillah.

it doesnt matter WHERE u r, it's WHO u r which determine everything!

doakn kami di Klang ni ye.

im a fashion freak!

2011-08-21T08:57:00.000+08:00

1stly, thanx to ira, (nnty mention my name kat blog u plak eh. ha8) sbb suro i read this one blog. more specifically one post. mule2 i was like, XNKLA, MLS NK BCE, MSTY MEREPEK2 PUNYE. tp ntah mcm mne, tgn ni terclick jgak link tu. n i was like dumbfounded. Alhamdulillah, hati tergerak utk bukak. Alhamdulillah jugak, penulis tu tulis mcm tu. :) i was once, in her shoes.

ingt lgy, when i was small (small here means younger kay, honestly, i was never small), i was big in size. standard one dulu, obesity. amek kaw. pgy skola, dpn gate lg ade org jerit2 BADAK DTG!!! nk pakai bju lawa2 pown xleyh. idk what happened, tp bile nk masok skola mnengah, da turun sikit. xla kurus, but da boley pakai lawa2 sikit la kan. da boley pakai bju size yg mmg utk my age kan. kalu darjah satu dulu, kna pakai bju budak 12 tawn j. lps diet2 lgy, da boley muat smpai size S kan. mmg happie thp cipan la kan! tp, mama tegas. mama slalu ingtkn, wanita yg da baligh (ok, rse pelik gune this word. like tuwe2 like that), kna tutup aurat. n to me, aurat means pakai tudung. itu j. shallow kan? so i was like, pakai fikir cover kpale je, baju ketat xpe.suar skinny pown cun. lgy2, kalu dpt beli size XS, lgy la bangge nk byr kat kaunter kan. ha3 :) fashion kan. gmbar fb pown nk beria kan. of course. msty nk tunjuk sume yg i da x segajah dulu. mmg bangge. lgy2 ble org komen kate lawa sume kan. lgy2 bile org kate : Da lawa la skang! style plak tu atau I LIKE UR STYLE. DIFF. oh kembang2 trus.

satu hari hati ni terketuk. tersoal diri sndiri, despite all those praises and attentions, knape haty x tenang? so i started utk cari. let me tell u, proses mencari, x susah pown. tp utk amalkn, ape yg da djumpai, hanye Allah yg tahu susahnye. but at last, i decided, ORG YG ADE ILMU TP X MENGAMALKNNYA ADALAH ORG YG RUGI. btowl. so i start changing the way i wear my tudung. mungkin org nmpk, SYAFIQAH DAH HILANG SENSE OF FASHIONS. ha3. xpela. jujo i said, im peaceful this way. rase terpelihara. my sense of fashion, biar suami i j taw nnty (asek ckp psl marriage j. ehehehehehe). nk make up2, nk hias2, tp biala utk org yg btol, insan yg BERANI memiliki kte dgn jln yg diredhai. :) tp dont get me wrong. doesnt mean u need 2 b ugly n messy. Islam x suke bnde kotor. Islam itu sendiri, cantek dan indah. berhias la dgn care yg telah digariskn. me myself, is still in the learning process of doing so. :)

mmg seronok jadi STYLO, FASHIONABLE, dipuji orang. tp rasenye, seronok lgy kalau dapat jadi BIDADARI YG TERPELIHARA. kan? insyaAllah.

ps : i dont mean to bash anyone. this comes sincerely from the heart to all muslimah that i love because of Allah. please correct me if im wrong too. itula tandenye hati terpaut kerana Allah. this is infact, a remnder to meself too. :)

rinduuu ^^

2011-08-21T07:59:00.000+08:00

Question :
Ustaz, kenape ye hati perempuan ni kadang² tiba² je rasa sedih tanpa sebab. Ada orang kata syaitan yang ganggu!. Ada petua tak untuk elakkan hati kita ni sedih? kadang² bila bangun pagi rasa sedih, kadang² rasa macam rindu...tapi tak tau rindu pada siapa!

Ustaz Azhar Idrus :
perkara biasa. hati perempuan mmg halus. hanya LELAKI SEJATI yang mampu menjadi PENAWAR.

-credit to hydrocephalus for sharing this with me.

Ya Allah, jika benar dye utkku, jadiknlah dye lelaki sejati tersebut. dan kuatknlah hatiku, agar aku tidak menjadi punca dye hilang dari kasih dan rahmatMu. Amiin.

a spec of dust to the eyes, but a diamond, to the heart

2011-08-19T02:21:00.003+08:00

it's sad to be leaving. even if it's only for 1 year. a place where u have witnessed a lot of things, n they are still there in ur head. now, u r leaving it behind. i believe, i havent been the best buddy ever. but Alhamdulillah, Allah gave me such nice people as my buddies. ifan actually came to my room bringing me presents. i was super happie when i saw a froggy mug inside the well wrapped box. in another paper bag, she gave me chocs, biscuits n god knows what. there was a big heart-shaped card, handmade by her. how cool is that? then, at nite, after my taraweh, my other buddy came to me and hand me a red paper bag. when i opened it, there, such beautiful notebook. i've seen them in the MPH store before. i've always want one of those fancy notebooks, but the prices are normally unreasonable. so, can u see why i am so glad to be receiving the notebook from atie???

known by me as ifan.

there, the froggy mug n a paper bag filled with everything SWEET!

they call her atie, but i cant help calling her, atiqah.

the notebook cant b seen in the pict. sorrie yaw!

it's true what they said, when u love ur friend because of Allah, rse syg itu akn lain.

even if they get on ur nerves, it's hard to b angry at them.

salah satu golongn dpd 7 golongn yg dijanjikan arasy tertinggi oleh Allah ialah,

those yg berjumpe dan berpisah kerana ALLAH!

my dear buddies, smoge perpisahan ini keranaNya, dan insyaAllah, kte bertemu lgy :)

walk with me and dont let me fall :)

2011-08-19T01:39:00.001+08:00

everyone has their own criterias that they want to c in their partner, kan? those are the things that make u feel compatible with the other half of u. so i decided to actually asked myself that question. what do i want in a guy? more specifically, in my HUSBAND. i hav once wrote a post, about these things. tp i think, that was then, this is now. time can change the way u act, the way u think, basically, EVERYTHING. enough mumbling and fumbling, back to the main question, WHAT DO I WANT 2 C IN A GUY?

i dont expect a guy sesoleh para anbiya', neither a guy yg sebaik malaikat. that's impossible. cukoplh ssorg yg hatinye terpaut pada Allah, dan syg pd rasulNya. a guy who might not have such high knowledge in Islam, but he takes the effort to learn it. a guy who supports me to b a better person. boleyh ingtkn each other bile same2 terlupe. same2 tlg each other ikatkn hati pd Allah. x perlu menjadi sorg tahfiz, ckopla mmpu mmbace Al Quran, agar hati sentiasa diingatkn ttg Allah. plg penting, is that he knows how to bring himself, jage maruahnye, n helps to protect mine too.

i think the list mcm agak panjang. ha6. sng cte, im not expecting pak lebai ke ape ke, yg pakai jubah k surban ke ape k. i lebeyh suke yg slmber je, ngn tshirt , ngn jeans, infact, shorts (tp pandai2 cover aurat la ye :) ) who knows how 2 hav fun n enjoy life, tp at the same time dye slalu ingat, in life there's always a full-stop.

nway, i found this, n it kindda touchd my heart :

Dari Abu Hurairah R.A berkata: Rasulullah SAW bersabda:

“Berpesan baiklah terhadap para wanita, karena wanita itu diciptakan dari tulang rusuk, dan tulang rusuk yang paling bengkok ialah yang paling atas, Jika engkau paksa meluruskannya dengan kekerasan akan patah dan jika engkau membiarkannya pasti akan tetap bengkok, oleh karenanya berpesan baiklah terhadap para wanita”.

(Hadith Sahih Riwayat Bukhari dan Muslim ).

define LOVE.

2011-08-17T01:37:00.000+08:00

u know what i hate the most about relationship? it's how it can changes u. from such an independent person, into someone so dependent. from an ignorant person, to a green eyed monster. from a person who care less about their phones, to a person who cant detach themselves from it. LOVE, to me, is a big word. easily spelled, but hardly understood. relationship, scares me. mcm mne, kalu cinta tu, pada tmpat yg salah? mcm mne, kalu cinta tu bawe aku makin jaoh dari definasi CINTA HAKIKI?

honestly, i dont think i have the strength, utk halang sebuah FITRAH dari mnjadi FITNAH.

ya Allah, kalu benar dye utkku, jadikanlah dia sorg yg boleyh MELABUHKN CINTAKU padaMu. berikanlah aku kekuatan.

a simple SALAM can starts a beautiful freindship

2011-08-16T15:13:00.000+08:00

we met by coincidence. thanks to Ramadhan, who introduced us to each other. if it wasnt bcoz of the ihya' Ramadhan i attended, we surely wont met each other. we only knew each other for 2 weeks, but it felt as if i have knew her for a long time. when it's time for her to board her plane, n went back to Dubai, i knew im gonna miss her. Dubai is a long way aite. i have no idea if we'll ever meet again. but whatever it is, thank u Mariam for the advises and things we shared. it was such a blessing meeting u. n of coure, thank u Allah for this wonderful friendship.

saya pemain bola kebangsaan (^^)

2011-08-08T12:48:00.000+08:00

ingat lgy waktu mintak kat ira bday present ari tu, pastu dye kate : OH, SORRIE, TERPAKSE POSTPONE. XDE DUIT. oh, terus rse kecewa. ttbe ari tu, i mean like 3 days ago, dye bg satu lipatan baju warna biru. dye kate : TGKLA, ORG KEDAI NI SALAH CETAK JERSI I. at 1st i didnt want 2 open the fold. mcm malas nk tgk. pastu ira pakse2 jgak. skali bukak2, JENG!!!!!

FRONT VIEW

BACK VIEW.

ade my name, n my number. woah!!!!

yay! jersi Malaysia, with my name.

jgn maen2, jersi original ok. siap ade label TANAH TUMPAH DARAHKU belakang bendera tuuu. x maen la beli2 tepi jalan kan. cetak2 kan. tnye ira, mcm mne dye beli yg ade name. dye kate mcm nie : BELI JERSI TU, PASTU, PANDAI2 LAAAA TEMPAH. custom made weyh!!!

ok, obviouslie, sgt berlagak diri ini kan. maklowmla, GEMBIRE KOWT! korg ade jersi malaysia name korg? ade? ade? ha8. kalu ade, diam2 la. kalu xde, sila jealous.

so, IRA, terime kaseh la bnyk2. mne u dapat duit ha? (ttbe kan)

ish, Ramadhan nie, x baek riak2 nie. syafiqah, syafiqah. sy x riak ok, just nk shre kegembiraan :)

if i have wings, im sure i can FLY

2011-08-05T10:34:00.000+08:00

at 1st, i was scared 2 welcome Ramadhan. knape takot? sbb.... takot waktu puase, lapar. ha4. ok, x lawak. xpe. takot byk bnde sbnrnye, tp x yah ckp la ye. mungkin, slame ni takot, sbb i dont fully understand what Ramadhan is all about. experiencing Ramadhan n UNDERSTANDING ramadhan are completely two diff things. this Ramadhan, i decided nk try sbnyk mungkin tingkatkn diri. heheheheh. Alhamdulillah, sronok Ramadhan kat kolej nie ha, bnyk aktiviti. boley kate, hampir setiap mlm kuar bilik dlm pkol 7pm(pg dm ye, nk prepare berbuka), pastu balek bilik smula dalam pkol 11pm. lepak surau (mcm cool je kan).kat surau complete, maghrib, isyak, taraweh, tadarus n ceramah. sume ade, so kalu stay kat situ, mcm2 dpt. heeeeee. plus, surau aircond. best! lalalalalala.

nway, smlm ade ceramah. title dye TRANSFORMASI DIRI. i admired the speaker, the way he delivered his speech. lawak, tp penuh maklumat. my heart tertarek dgn slh satu facts nie, that is :

Wanita yang SOLEHAH itu nanti apabila dimasukkan ke SYURGA akan diperbaikkan rupanya menjadi SANGAT CANTIK. dan sekiranya SUAMInya juga SOLEH dan mendiami SYURGA, dia akan dijadikan ISTERI kpd SUAMInya di sana bersama 70 lagi BIDADARI. tetapi wanita yg solehah ini akan menjadi yg TERCANTEK utk suaminya.

best kan??? bile dgr j, hati terus terdetik, nk jadi BIDADARI syurga jugak, da x nk jd PWINCESS dah (tp still nk jd la utk mama kan) . kalu mcm tu, knala jadi wanita solehah. insyaAllah, boleyh punye. x mudah, tp x impossible. nk jd anak solehah yg mmpu buat parents dye tersnyum ble tgk cintanya kpd Allah. n oh, kalu boley, nk suami yg soleh. pastu same2 masok syurga. xnk kawen dkt dunia je. kan... (ttbe tinggi plak angan2.heeee) x salah kn. :)

each new age, is a new beginning

2011-08-03T13:12:00.003+08:00

there, ara in her new abaya. we asked her to put it on along with the shawl and burqa.

happie turning 21 girl.

semoga ukhuwah yg terjalin antara kita sentiasa terikat dgn dasar cintakan Allah :)

the month of happiness

2011-08-01T00:24:00.000+08:00

aritu, saje cube2 pakai purdah. da lame da ade, cume simpan je, sbb blom ready kot nk pakai. skrg ni, mcm x ssuai pakai. sbb polisi fact, student xleh cover muke kan. tapi mmg mngaku, bile pakai mcm nie, rse sgt selamat. mcm terjage. apepown, im sure setiap hati mesti akan merindui pencipta-Nya. semoga setiap dari kita, akan terketuk hatinya untuk mendekati Allah :)

Selamat Menyambut Ramadhan.

F stands for FAMILY :)

2011-07-25T21:31:00.030+08:00

ade kenduri kawen, so the four of us pown berangkat la ke Gemencheh kan. sbb long journey, we stayed in Ayer Keroh. kat situ, smpat la sambut blated bday si gumok Nurul Syahirah Noor Azman. dah 19 yaw!!!!

si GUMOK dan si TANGAN GUMOK.

bile bersame mcm perjumpaan monsters plak.

mama mmg xde care snyum laen

ok, gmba ni mcm ridiculous sikit. tp, it's the best that i have.

yg laen, sume mcm blur. salahkn mama -_-" heeee

then mlm tu pg Gemencheh. suke tgk da married couple. the bride umo 57 n the groom is 59. there, marriage knows NO BOUNDARIES. :)praying the best for the newly weds. habes kenduri, smpat singgah rumah mak tam. mama la plg bahagia. ira ngn boy pown ats cloud 9 jugak la kan makan durian. tinggal la me, myself, and i (pathetic plak bunyi dye) kat tepi satu sudut sorg2 sbb x makan durian.

there, mama pujok mak tam yg tgh sedeyh sbb x bg mama balek kl.

there, famili pict :)

nk tunjuk, itula skirt bday, shazni bg.

actually it's a dress yg half length tu, so someone was asking me, mcm mne nk pakai, skirt tu x panjang.

the answer is, TURUNKN JE LA, PAKAI MCM SKIRT INSTEAD OF DRESS.

kn senang. ^^

HEAD-shoulder-knees and ????

2011-07-25T01:36:00.000+08:00

sbnrnye nk tulis psl post laen, tp ttbe rse nk tulis psl nie. perasan x header da laen??? MSTY X PERASANKAN!!!! ish! xpe la! nway, da lame x maen2 ngn HTML, layout, template ni sume. rinduuu. tp once da start, annoyed la, sbb nk stop susah!. nway, td ade buat a few header. budget nk tuka header laen sikit. header asal rupe dye mcm... ALA, X INGT SIMPAN HEADER TU KAT FOLDER MANE! so, kite abaikn la rupe yg lme mcm mne.

nway, here are the designs.

ok, rupe same je, colour je laen. mayb the font kot laen sikit. ade bnyk lgy sbnrnye, ade dlm 4 header kot, tpppp, terdelete plak td. so, xdpt tunjok. nway, mule2 budget nk ade gmba kat tepi. credits to IRA for the pict. tppppp, bile da letak, MALUUUU LA nmpk muke sendiri besar2 dkat HEADER tuuuu. last2, after much of editting, tekan here, tekan there, saket aty sane, saket aty sini, i settled down with this one. (the one u can c on my blog rite now). there, SIMPLE je. sng kan??? ha3. nnty la eh, bile ade idea bernas lgy, i'll try 2 b more creative.

ok dah, mase tdo. esok ade kelas smpai pkol 4. :)

a lil monolog

2011-07-22T14:00:00.004+08:00

xsangke, da habes minggu ke-2 clinical years. i have another nearly 3 years more of classes to attend. jgnla pancit Syafiqah. nway, minggu ni mcm interesting to me. mcm2 bnde lwk jadi, sedih, memalukan, sume la. but in the end, im happie all those things happened. dsbbkn we only have 6 weeks kat sini, smorg pown mcm berusaha la nk belaja sbnyk mungkin from seniors sblom ktorg pindah klang. to those yg ade buddy besar, or kwn2 seniors yg sudi mngajar, beruntung la kan. tp to those yg xde, terpakse mnumpang2, x pown cari inisiatif laen.

Alhamdulillah, i have a senior yg sggop mngajar. but of course, his time mcm limited. dye pown kna blaja utk diri sndiri kan. so, kkdg pg je la ward sndiri. tp kalu pg ward sndiri, tu la, history taking j la. itu pown x sure btowl k x. dsbbkn itu la, i dcided, utk do something else. i rmmbered Proff Rokiah words : MAKE THE HOSPITAL UR HOME, N U WILL B HAPPIE IN IT. at 1st, it's hard for me to understand it. but now, i do. i dcdd, every time i nk pg wardround, im gonna set my mind, that im gonna go to my own PLAYGROUND, not a HOSPITAL. kurang sikit rse cuak kan.

so, last tuesday, while walking along the ward's corridor, i saw a nurse holding something. i was kindda curious to know what that thing was. i dont know how i did it, but i actually went after the nurse. i stopped her, n asked her what was she doing. n i asked whether it's ok if i followed her and if she could teach me a few things. Alhamdulillah, she said yes. so that day, i learnt a few ward chores from a nurse. thanks akak. since that incident, i realised, ilmu ni, kalu kite nak, kite kena kejar. jgn harap dye dtg bergolek. so i decided, lps ni nk keja DOCTOR plak. so yes, i actually went after a doctor. oh pengalaman tu, x yah ckp la lawaknye.

i actually said this :

Assalamualaikum Doctor, tadi saya dah clark patient nie, skrg boleyh saya tahu doctor nk buat ape dgn dia? boleyh aja kami?
Awk ni sape? (muke dye SHOCK gyler)
Oh, sy Syafiqah, pelajar tahun 3, ni kwn saye ___________ (name kwn biar rahsia)
Awk nk belaja ape?
Ape2 je yg doctor nk aja, sume sy nak. boleyh?
Tadi awk kate awk da clark patient ni kan? skrg bgtaw sy, ape yg awk tahu.

dgn terketar2, present je la ape yg i know kan. dgn harapan, he will accept me as his student. lps je present, dye pandang, then dye snyum. pastu kate, NOT BAD. OK, SY TNYE, AWK JWB. IKOT SAYE. starting from that, dye benarkn la ktorg ikot dye ke hulu hilir. kat every patients, dye tnye ktorg soalan. ade yg boley jwb, x kurang jugak blmbak yg ktorg x leh jwb. i even answered with stupid answers. tp to me, biarla dye rse im stupid ke ape, yg penting, i know what i dont know, nnty boleyh bace lagy, perbaiki diri. n paling penting, i want the knowledge he shared. sblom berpisah, ckp la thanx dgn dye kan, pastu dye ckp : Kalu nk belaja lgy, cari la sy.

balik j dat ward, me n my friend was like smiling from ears to ears. ade org yg taw, ade jugak tnye mcm ni:

Pqa, x malu ke keja doct sume?
Knape nk malu?
Urm, mne taw dye xnk aja?
So knape kalu dye x nk aja?

honstly, i have come to a point, yg x kesah la nk kna pekik ke ape. kate pown student. jd HO esok pown, mmg akan jd mangse tengking. so baek practise skrg. MALU? malu ape? mencari ilmu tu kan JIHAD, so nk malu knape? malu beribadah ke?

mmg mngaku, penat, letih, sume la. kecewa pown ade kkdg. rejections, mmg a common things. nurse tarek muke, doctor xnk lyn kite, patients buat2 tdo. tp, those are the things that gonna make u stronger kan? bnde2 yg akan mngajar kite. semoga dgn pengalaman ni sume, i can not only b a doctor who treats a patient, but 2 understand them too. :)

haritu lps solat, ttbe bnde ni dtg dkt otak :

"ILMU ALLAH TU LUAS, MANE MUNGKIN KITE BERJAYA MENGETAHUI KESEMUANYA, TAK MENGETAHUI SECEBIS DARINYA, BUKAN BERMAKNA KITA BODOH, TETAPI BERERTI KITE HARUS BERUSAHA MEMPELAJARINYA"

so, to those who thinks it's so wrong to look foolish, atau rse stupid, think again eh :)

in bad tymes, there's ALWAYS someone who can make u smile

2011-07-18T22:08:00.027+08:00

i love shopping. it's just me! ha3. when ruhana text ajak pg OU, sbb forever21 on sale, i just cant say no. kan? ha3. n seriouslie! mmg ON SALE! i bought myself a pair of stilettos for only.... RM40! n a pair of faded-pink jeans for only RM69.90. FOREVER21 ok!!!! sume pown rse nk beli!!!! lps shopping2 dgn gembire, ttbe these two girls im with (sofia n coo) ttbe surprise me with a bday card. bukak je bday card dlm tu ade... BRACELET! da la bday card gmbar FROGGY kan... extra SMILE! then lps maghrib, Shazni dtg. join ktorg utk berbuke. pastu blanje tutti frutti kannnn. n sblom he drop me off dkt um, he gave me a maxi dress he bought from Bandung!

awesome goodies at super fabulicious price!

miss maxi skirt from Bandung

so tell me, how can it not b a perfect day? :)

STRAWS to my BERRIES :)

2011-07-15T15:35:00.026+08:00

HAPPIE BDAY! ktorg dtg bilik awk, awk xde, so kteorg dtg sini.

so that's how the three of them got there. infront of a friend's room yg kbtolan i was there sbb nk practise PE. i was dumbfounded. mcm terkaku. x taw nk ckp ape. i saw the presents they brought along in their hands. n honestly, i cant believe those beautiful gifts were for me. here they are :

mcm taw2 je i need a new pair of heels kan. n amazingly, THEY KNOW MY SIZE!!!!

the beauty of the scarf, to me, is indescribable. n that book, u hav no idea how much i can relate myself to it.

Alhamdulillah. thank u Allah for giving me these three wonderful girls as my friend.

to Hafsah, Ara n Izzah, thank u so much.

kite syg korg kerana Allah :)

may this friendship lasts forever. insyaAllah.

dear heart

2011-07-15T14:20:00.003+08:00

kadang2 rse mcm org x dgr ape kite ckp,
mcm kite x pnting utk dye
mcm dye xnk kongsi bnde dgn kite
mcm kite mganggu dye
mcm dye bosan dgn kite...
plg sakit,
mcm kite x istimewa dkt dye.

pnh rse mcm tu? well, i have. n yes, it hurts. so i told myself.

hati, kuat sikit boleyh? jgn mudah terase
syukur masih boleyh berckp, walopon org x dgr. ade org x boleyh berckp.
penting sgt k menjadi org yg penting di mata manusia?
kalu dye xnk kongsi, xpela, hormat privasi dye
mungkin tibe mase kite buat bnde laen yg x berkaitan dgn die
biar x istimewa di mata manusia, jgn x istimewa, di mata... Allah :)

n yes, even thought the pain is still there, but these thoughts, do make me feel better.

sometimes, FAILURE comes FIRST, then comes SUCCESS

2011-07-13T01:34:00.000+08:00

it's 1.10am. im super tired. i woke up 6.30am the morning before. n till now, i havent shut my eyes even for a minute. had a long lecture in the morning, then 2 hours of wardround. nway, we were given a task by a doctor to prepare a case on respiratory system by Thursday. so, knowing that the patients are VERY LIMITED! i know i hve to find one as fast as possible. Alhamdulillah, 3 of my friends volunteered to help me. we split into two groups of two. i was told by a senior yg ward 12U bnyk respt case. org laen pg ward ade senior, ktorg xde. sbb mase yg ktorg nk pg, xde senior yg free. so. we decided to be independent. kate Dr. Rokiah, MAKE THE HOSPITAL UR HOME, BE COMFORTABLE IN IT. i wont deny, it was one scary moment. bygkan la, nk pg ward, all by your own. we only depend on what we were taught earlier in the morning. pandai2 pgy kaunter, tnye nurse utk buku TL, pndai2 cari case, pndai2 cari katil, pndai2 introduce diri, mintak kbnaran, and ask questions.

the 1st 15 mins in the ward was scary. ingt sng nk cari patients yg nk coorporate? on 1st attempt, we were rejcted. the patient kate nk tdo. honestly, at that point, hafsah n i thought we had no hope in meeting any patients. sbb as we walked through the corridor, peeping at the rooms, sume mcm STARE AT US. some of the visitors actually smirk at us, protecting their love one from being interrogated by us. till at one point, we actually stood and stared the empty corridor for nearly 5 mins before we could gather back our guts and tried our luck once again.

with a Bismillah, we walked again through the corridor. and in one room, we saw an aunty.was staring blankly at her bedsheets. we decided, maybe we should just try to approach her. just for the sake of making sure she was alright. n Alhamdulillah, she's actually one of the respt patient, on pleural effusion. u have no idea how happy n grateful i was. we, as a beginner, stumbled along the way, stopped and startled at each other, ran out of questions to asked, but she was being nice n kind enough to be saying ; XPE, BRU NK BELAJAR KAN'. we smiled at the words. lps habes dye, i was zest to find more patients. and Alhamdulillah, we managed to find another 2 patients. kate dr. Rokiah : U SHOULD AT LEAST HAVE 3 PATIENTS A DAY. yes, we do spent a lot of time with one patient. it was nice to hear their stories.

our last patient actually said this : WAKTU MUDE LA KITE NK CARI ILMU, KUMPUL HARTA. PAKCIK DOAKAN ANAK2 BERJAYA, SEMOGA ALLAH PERMUDAHKAN. lps aminkan his doa, we decided to call it a day. it was the nicest feeling on earth. to know that we actually managed to do it by our own. i know, we might b doing the wrong thing, but at least, we tried. balek ward, discuss plak dgn seniors on our techniques. yes, we were corrected here n there, but at least, we know we have done something that make us proud today. the feeling, honestly, is wordless. no words can describe it. u want to feel it? try one day, going to the ward ALL BY YOURSELF. enter an unknown territory, n try to fit in :) u know, i was so nervous earlier, that i actually took my wudu' before going to the hospt.

n yes, thank u Allah for making things easier for us. as i walked back to my room, i kindda wonder, what will happen if we actually gave up when we were rejected on our first attempt?

this song kinda inspire me earlier,

post celebration?

2011-07-11T22:47:00.003+08:00

my CELEBRATING-BDAY mood still x hilang lgy. i believe, a bday should b celebrated for a week. so, anymore presents people??? ha7. nway, this time celebrate dgn mohawk. the plan was simple. sume pown simple.bkn buat ape2 pown, just makan2, then gelak2, but the fun part was mnyanyi sekuat aty dlm kete. punye la payah nk dpt gmba tu kan. nk cari port kan. last2 we found this huge mirror dkt curve. dgn gembirenye tgkp gmba. tp ade a few gmba nmpk merepek, so baek hide it from the world. so here, are my fav:

bende ni da jd mcm tradition. asal kuar j mkn nie!

nk show off muke runcing :)

thank u!

yg tgkp gmba tu nk curi mkn la tuuuuu

smlm waktu mohawk drive, bru sedar, muke dye mcm bird. tweet tweet. trus rase nk maen angry bird. -_-"

i love you

2011-07-10T23:27:00.029+08:00

log in fb, snyum2 sndiri nmpk number of bday wishes. :) ble phone beeps, msg masok, snyum makin lebar. n when they called to wishd, i just cant stop shouting exctedly. it's really, a nice feeling to know that people remmber, n they do care. the celebration might not b a big and grand one, but it's enough to know, those who matters, were there. thank u mama, boy, ira for the simple, yet meaningful clbration. :) i love all of u endlessly!

i love the cake!

ok, ni muke baek :)

she, who makes the impossible, POSSIBLE!

mcm tapir je muke.

nk ltak gmba dgn ira n boy, but the pict with boy was too ugly. so, nk fair, x letak gmba dgn dua2 adek. so no one tersinggung. kan? kan? nway, boy said to me,
"boy bg kaklong purse ni, hopefully duit kaklong x hlg lgy"

awwww, i miss u tgn gemok. x saba nk balek weekend nie

im 21? yikes!

2011-07-10T01:19:00.001+08:00

it's midnight! so officially, bubye ms.20, welcome to ur new home ms.21. please be super2 nice to me. for the past 21 years, i'm blessed to b having amazing people around me, good things that makes me smile, n bad things that taught me wonderful lessons. may the coming days filled with more blessings. insyaAllah! :)

i have them, so im ok

2011-07-09T20:20:00.064+08:00

today, excitedly, i put on my wide-legged pants and... hit the road. mama said, since tomorrow i have to go back to the university, might as well celebrate my birthday a day earlier. :) so here :

Alhamdulillah for the great day. i had a fun time, but most of it was because, i have them with me. :)

so let's c :

wide-legged pants, over-sized t-shirt, scarf by mohawk, n im more than ready to go!

happiness can be in small size

2011-07-08T21:48:00.001+08:00

at last, berjaye! dapat buat my own caramel pudding. this has been on my MUST-COOK list since last year. only now, after two trials, i managed to do it! bangge ok! mama kate SEDAP, fer kate it tastes like paddlepop, ira said it's nice. even alynn was impressed. see, im not a bad cook after all :)

not everyone is worth remembering, but them, are not worth forgetting!

2011-07-08T00:02:00.000+08:00

this is one late post. bnde ni da lame habes, but only now im writing it. i insist on writing it. one nice thing after passing ur 2nd year final exams is knowing that u r going to b a clinical student after this. the tiring thing is finishing electives. after much of thinking, we decided our title will be : THYROID STATUS AMONGST MOTHER WITH HYPEREMESIS GRAVIDARUM (UMMC EXPERIENCE). serius penat otak, penat badan, penat evrything. but at last, it's OVER! Alhamdulillah! our supervisor, Dr Rosy said we did a good job! im one happy momma! ha3.

there, after i lost count of how many obstacles we had to go through (including spending the night in the wards, flipping numerous pages of files, n staring at the compt screen for hours) at last, it's all over. let's pray hard we pass!

red-hair makes me insane!

2011-07-07T11:38:00.000+08:00

when i like someone, i adore them tremendously! n i've been her loyal stalker since i first heard her singing unfaithful. n today, i want that hair so damn much!

MONTE CARLO

2011-07-06T10:25:00.000+08:00

have u watched the movie? well gurls, u should! i love the insanity, the romance, most importantly, the DRESSES! but of course, being a normal girl, i HATE THEIR perfect size 1 body! they look pretty even wearing SINGLETS! ha7. jealous much huh? nway, seriouslie, this is one good movie to watch during ur GIRLS DAY OUT. obviouslie it's a girlish type of movie la kan. once the movie was over, all i could think of is a visit to CITY OF LOVE. one day, insyaAllah. mark my word, ONE DAY!

we spent rm9 for the movie's tickets, but we paid RM15.50 for the parking! thank u KLCC for helping me emptying my moneyless pocket!

please THURSDAY, comes FAST!

2011-07-04T22:46:00.001+08:00

mohawk!

so, this might not be the nicest muffin in the whole world. not the prettiest too. but this, was baked with sincerity. with prayers and hope that it turnd out well. n i must say, im happie with the result. how i baked this muffin, with high hopes that it works, im hoping the same for u too. for the coming 3 days, may everything turns out well. let's pray together, for the best.

do u c ur initials on the choc?? it took me 10 mins to do it, using vanila icecream n Hershey chocs.