to do something, or to ignore
Thursday, April 11, 2013,
The sheikh was asked, "Why do i have difficulties waking up for my qiam?"
The sheikh answered, "Sometimes, we have so much sins, that it weighed u, and hold u down from waking up"
i felt like i've been slapped really hard, till i felt like crying. as hard as it is to admit, i guess he is right. i took time to do some reflections, and i do realised,
- lately, i've been so busy with my paeds posting, on-calls, wardrounds, seminars, tutorials, that i've been speeding my prayers
- when i was praying, my mind was more focus on the things i have to do after that, rather than focusing on my prayers. (khushu')
- im getting stingy and stingy-er on my du'a
- mayb, somewhere or rather, my ikhtilat wasnt taken good care of as it used to
- i've been spending so many hours infront of the lappy that i've been wasting my time watching and reading non-beneficial things
and the list goes on.
im not trying to 'aib'kan myself by writing all these wrong doings. but for u, my dear reader, to mayb at least, read, and reflects too. sometimes, we tend to ignore all these things, ensuring that they are just small mistakes and they will bring no harm. tapi, kalau byk2 bnde kecik, kumpul2 lama2 jd massive. and bila hati jd kotor, u urself will realise, u will start feeling empty and far. well, im feeling that now. and that's sad. but i guess, reflecting means nothing without actions kan? so, new task for me, to go back on the right track and find Allah again. wish me luck :)
When u are too absorbed with the DUNYA, u tend to BRING it in ur PRAYERS.but in the end, u should know, the DUNYA does not lasts forever.
"Orang pintar itu ialah yang selalu menjaga dirinya (dari hal buruk) & banyak beramal untuk bekalnya di akhirat kelak." (HR.Tirmidzi)
new past