i hear no music in me
Thursday, July 5, 2012,
have u been in a state of denial before? u know, wishing that if u just ignore, things would pass and you will b ok?? well, im in that state rite now. yes, every second, my mind cant stop whispering how closer im getting to my phase 3A final exam. as enthusiasm i am to b in phase 3B, i cant deny the fact that im not a fan of exams! *sigh*. they freak me out and put me in an emotional dilemma. talking about hormones. and eventhought i might not show it on my face, i know im completely stress-out when i start playing musics again. u know, yesterday and today, i spent nearly 6 hours playing the piano. and just now, i cant help but rummaging through my cupboards, seeking for my violin again! huhhhh! this...is abnormal ok!
on normal days, i would never spend more that 5 mins on the piano. but look what exams did to me. -_-"
i cant remmber when was the last time i played the violin. jari2 pon dah keras oready. i cant even hit the simple note rite anymore. even the case is covered with dust. poor u mr.violin. sorry i have been ignoring u for so long. im just not an art-stream person i guess.
urmm, ignorance cant b a bliss EVERYTIME. sometimes, u need to gather ur guts and face reality. so Syafiqah, come on. have u seen saidatina Aisyah or Khatijah or any other great srikandi gave up before?? u might not b able to b as great as they are, but u can at least try to b nearly like them. *ok, this is basically a written down monologue*
now, i need 2 get back to my meds book. pray for me yeah.
bye bye good people!
new past