a letter to DWARF, from city of LOVE
Monday, January 2, 2012,
Assalamualaikum mawar islam :) ,
hey! i miss u babe. it's been a long tyme kan x jmpe2, chill2 same2?
setiap hari pown when im free, i'll take tyme to read ur blog. i guess that's the only way for me to catch-up with ur perkembangan. n im HAPPIE, u r doing so well. DEAN'S LIST EVERY SEMESTER? siap masuk mcm2 pertandingan n menang pulak tu. wow!
i wanted to text u and call, tp takot kau bz. u know, everytime i talked to Mum, we always talk about u :) how successful u r and how happy we r. lgy2, about ur plan, flying to the state. *i know i shoudlnt mention about this, tp x kire!* we really hope u get it, even thought itu akn mnjaohkn kite lgy la kan. :) tapi... as i said earlier, A GIRL HAS TO DO WHAT A GIRL HAS TO DO :)
nway, i bumped into ur post titled TERRIFIED, BUT.... xtaw knape, aku pown rse the sadness u felt. i mean, susah study tu sume kan. (mayb in a way, it seems like i dont really get u, but i do). nway, im feeling the same way. sort of. aku x suke sgt PAEDS posting. i LOVE KIDS, but it's a heart break for me to watch them crying and suffering in pain. setiap kali pg ward, my mind wont b there. dye mcm lari tmpat laen nk cari serenity. as a result, aku selalu blur dlm ward. n i think, my prof pown mnyampah tgk aku blur (sedeyh). n im stuck in this posting for another 1 month 2 weeks. setiap hari pown berdoa i'll b stronger to step into that ward n cepatlaaaa posting ni habes. in a way, aku da x tahan. at tymes, rse mcm nk ponteng wardround kan. lgy2 tgk ward yg ventilation pown dahsyat. burung2 makan makanan patient. kotor btol. mmg xnk pg ward. tpp xnk kna bar dari exam. plus, nnty xdpt pahala sabar. :) heeee.
i do realised, skrg da mcm trend islamic post kat fb kan. infact, almost everywhere. in a way, aku happie! sbb at least, bukak fb pown ade reminder for me. tp betol, bnyk sgt, sort of suffocating. ade yg extreme sgt, smpai mcm condemning. to me la, islam tu mudah, cantek, n sgt penyayang. it doesnt condemn nbdy. im thankful that there are a lot of people out there to remind us through our steps. but in the end, the choice of path is mine. Rasulullah once said, "Ikutlah fatwa HATI, yang baik itu MENENANGKAN hati dan yang BURUK itu MENGGELISAHkn hati". so, do what u believe n KNOW is right. as long as x langgar syariat :) we have AlQuran n Hadith as guidelines kan :) dont let people make islam looks so constricting to u, bcoz it is not. infact, it's too beautiful to have any flaws. :) plus, Rasulullah s.a.w said: “ Kamu lebih mengetahui tentang urusan keduniaan kamu sendiri.”
ok, da x taw ape nk ckp. actually... BANYAK nk ckp! tp nk ckp depan2. nk peluk2 kau, nk lompat2 dpn kau, lps tu mmbebel bnyk2. have all the girls talk we usually have. :)
aku saje tulis bnde nie, 1st, bcoz im bored n i feel like writing. 2nd, i like writing 'letter-kind' of thingy. 3rd, I WANT U TO KNOW THAT U R STILL IN MY MIND. sorrie sbb kkdg x reply wall kau. serious x perasan. plus, notifications x bgtaw ape2 pown. :( not my fault. ha8
last (janji!), be STRONG! oh, ni sbnrnye shout out for myself jgak. esok ade another ward round *palpitation*. i was reading this one article, when i found this :
Rasulullah saw. bersabda: “Mukmin yang kuat lebih baik dan lebih dicintai oleh Allah daripada Mukmin yang lemah. Segala sesuatunya lebih baik. Tampakanlah terhadap hal-hal yang bermanfaat bagimu dan minta tolonglah kepada Allah dan janganlah engkau menjadi tak berdaya.” (Muslim)
ps : do u remmber the tyme i x tutop aurat? u were there to remind me in doing what's right. that's what true friends do. so this tyme around, aku nk jd true friend kau. nk jd ur supporter. (walopon x la support ape kan). just bygkan je la aku dgn pompom, cheering for u rite here.
pss : kalu free, TEXT LA AKU! x pown call ke. x rindu aku ke? :)
psss : i love u A LOT!
pssss : nnty balek kl, weekends, free, TELL ME! nk jmpe, bg adiah bday
psssss : sorrie la pnjg sgt
pssssss : write la entry for me too *blush*
psssssss : abaikn pssssss.
n oh, aku taw kau x emo! :) u r not the EMO kind. org emo mne boley dpt dean's list berturut2 kan :)
bye!
new past