the times when i feel ignored
Tuesday, November 8, 2011,
sepanjang hari, ade rase x kena. rase mcm sedeyh je. rse mcm lonely. nak kate sbb xde kwn, nipu la tu. i have been surrounded by awesome people the whole day. tapi.... ade something yg rase x kna. for some reason, i have been seating near to my phone the whole day. maybe.... i was waiting for it to ring, or at least beep, telling me im still in ur mind, not forgotten. but u know that despair? when nothing happened. and u just wish, u havent wish what u wished for? if only, i could just ignore the phone, the silent. let my mind be in peace. so i decided to just stare aimlessly at the laptop. wishing something might pops out at my page telling everything is ok. but again, NOTHING. at last, i realized, i havent done somethng. I did EVERYTHING except.... mngadu dkt Dia. today, i belom lgy mnje betol2 dgn Dia. it's time, i seek for peace from Him.
after performing solat2 sunat, i opened the Quran. n u know what was the 1st verse i saw? here,
Sungguh, Kami telah memberikan kepadamu kemenangan yang nyata. Agar Allah memberikan ampunan kepadamu atas dosamu yang lalu dan yang akan datang, serta menyempurnakan nikmat-Nya atasmu dan menunjukkan jalan yang lurus. Dan agar Allah menolongmu dengan pertolongan yg kuat (banyak). Dialah yang telah menurunkn KETENANGN ke dalam hati orang-orang mukmin utk menambah keimanan atas keimanan mereka (yang telah ada). Dan milik Allah-lah bala tentera langit dan bumi, dan Allah Maha Mengetahui lagi Maha Bijaksana.
Masya-Allah. i was so absorbed in trying to be important to someone, that i forgot to make myself important to HIM. a lil note to myself, next tyme, if there's nbdy who makes u feel so insignificant, remember, He is always there to make u feel special.
whatever it is, happie birthday to a special person. i really wish, u have a good day. sorrie if im not a good listener.
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