when God created u, He made no mistake :)
Tuesday, June 14, 2011,
we all, started as a kid. how we gonna ends, god knows. but along the way, u will learnt a lot of things and some of them, changed u. lots of people love the word, MATURE, n most of them tried their hardest to define it for others. assuming, that they are matured enough to call others childish. i have no idea what's ur definition of mature, but to me, maturity has nothing to do with putting serious face 24/7 making u look old and ugly. maturity i guess, is the way u think. i do know a few people who still play around like kids, but once they start brainstorming, u will b dumbfounded at how wise they are, they can aw u with their perspective on life. on the other hand, i know people who put on straight face claiming that's what maturity is all about, but u should c the way they think, attacking people through facebook thinking that's the solution for the prob? spreading mean stuffs about others and trying the best to influence others to hate the person they hate? that's lame people, lame. u will only reflect to others, how emotional u r. but hey, give them some time. they will grow up eventually. we all do. nway, i wont deny, i have done lots of silly things that makes me regrets. u c, i used to think :
1) it's totally cool when a girl hang out with a bunch of boys (mcm hot la sorg2 gurl)
2) having 10 different guys text-ing u everyday and asking u out (mcm, attractive nye aku kan)
3) havoc la kalu bertepuk tampa ngn dudes (mcm dlm movie, mcm K.A.M.I ke.ha8)
4) making my boyfie jealous with the amount of guy friends i have
5) it's fun to go out with diff random guys every week.
n there are more stupid stuffs that me, myself are ashamed to talk of. so leave it be a secret. nway, now that im turning into voting age, i do realized, what silly things have i been thinking? what's so cool about having all that? when i actually stopped, and think, i do realized, they were all so tiring! all the quarrels, fights and attentions!
i guess, i have come to a point where, fooling around with hearts, is no fun anymore. the spotlight, is not as exclusive as it seems. i just want to have this one person, who i can trust, keep the friendship right, and with Allah helps, ends-up with him. no more, going out with random guys, text-ing diff guys or hanging out,acting cool. i didnt say i've pushed my guy friends away, i will always have them, but the thing i have changed is, the way we mingle. and trust me, im feeling better now, than before. coz in the end, i realised, it's the attention from the one u care, that matters most than the attentions given by the rest.
n oh, im not at all saying im matured ok. i have a lot more things to learn before i can qualify myself one of those wise people. :)
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