i hate the letter J
Thursday, May 26, 2011,
bnci bile ade rse jealous. hilang rse macho. when i have that 'J' feelin' in me, i will start doing the stupidest thing in life. mcm, ttbe marah org x tntu pasal, or ttbe je deactivate fb account. ha3. pastu ble da cool balek, rse dumb2 for doing what i did. pastu malu sndiri. that's the reason, i cant n shouldnt b in any relationship. honestly, i dont easily get jealous, but once jealousy catches me, im a living devil. i might do things that i wont do in normal days. like example, when i was in form 3, i saw my guy walking out his class with a girl. i was pissed off bcoz he makes me wait. n i dont like waiting. so i ended up patahkn his motorcycle side mirror. n this one tyme when i was in standard 1, i was jealous that my bestie hangout with another person, so i put BITS OF ERASERS in her drinks. well, she was absent the nxt day bcoz of diarrhea. and being a good friend, i called her constantly to show her how much i care. teehee. ok, ckopla dua je example kan. im not a bad person, really. that was the old times. but now, every time i nearly plan something 2 kill a person (this is a joke ok. so laugh!) i keep reminding this to myself :
in every friendships / relationship, the reason y we met is bcoz Allah gave us that chance. n if he says it's the end of the friendship / relationship, He knows best.
nway, the reason y im jealous in the first place, is bcoz u have a special place in my heart.
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