my piece of heaven
Friday, March 25, 2011,
td, hati tergerak utk bace blog ssorg nie. da lme x mlwt blog tu. bce2, terlalu satu post. hati tersentuh, air mate pown berderai. cerite psl mama dye yg da xde. saat tu, baru aku sedar, untungnye aku ade mama. i've been complaining so many things in life, till at times, i cant see the most precious thing i have infront of me.
mama n i, mmg sgt rapat. rapat yg tahap max. jln kat shoppin complex pown pgg tgn. kalu mama tdo, x selimutkn aku, atau x cium dahi aku, aku xkn tdo. aku akn tunggu smpai mama dtg. kalu makan, nk dudok sblh mama. ade mase2, nk mama suap, kalu x aku akan stare j makann tu, xnk sentuh pown. org kalu tgk, kkdg kate ktorg pelik la, ape la. sbb ktorg perangai hmpir nk same. giggles dkt bnde yg org laen x nmpk kelaka, akan sgt excited dkt bnde yg org laen anggap sgt common. n yes, sy sgt manje dgn mama.
dari mama la, i learnt to smile in misery. ade org ingt, aku x rety marah, x reti bengang. ye la, asek snyum je. tp org yg knl aku, akn tahu da real thing. dari mama i learnt, bukan smorg tmpat kite cmpak kemarahan, kesedihan. snyuman tu lebih baek dihulurkn, daripada muke yg masam. snyuman yg ikhlas jugak bg pahala. lgypown, ape motif masam muke dkt org? nk bg rosak hari org laen ke? so yes, i smile at things that u dont understand.
org laen, ade suami tmpat lari. tempat mngadu, tmpt mnje2. org laen, ade suami sblh dye waktu dye saket bersalin. mama xde all that privileges. tp bile org tgk dye senyum, lebeyh lebar dpd org yg dkurnia kesempurnaan yg dye xde. ingt lgy, waktu tu kecik lgy, waktu tu hdop x ssng skang, kete xde. aku demam panas, sbb xde sape nk tolong anta aku pg hospital, mama sanggup dukung aku tgh panas, tunggu teksi. kalu isteri laen, da pakse suami dorg anta. ape pown jd, mama x pnh aja ktorg perasaan benci. kate mama, seorang wanita tu kene bersabar. biarla skali pown hati dye dihancurkan oleh org yg dye syg. aku taw, kkdg malam2 mama nanges sorg2. aku dgr. aku, bru gado dgn balak, yg xde ikatan sah dgn aku pown, da teresak2 berbulan2, bygkan perasaan mama. dari luaran, bile tgk senyuman dye, tubuh kecik dye, sape sangke dye sekuat tu di dalam. her physical does not reflects even a single piece of her pain.
Alhamdulillah, i have her as my mom. she makes things happen for me. yes, i am pampered, but im not spoiled. bile buat salah, mama akn tego. i can tell ANYTHING to her, tp mama akan marah kalu i cry for a guy. knape dye marah? sbb aku bazirkn air mate utk bnde yg salah. bnde yg haram aku tangisi. bnde yg mmbutekn aku pd cinta hakiki Allah. kalu la i am as strong as she is. kalu la i can keep on smiling like how she does. sbb tu, i dont mind people talk about me, but i cant accept when people talk about mama. no matter what u say, blom tntu u can b as strong as she is.
Ya Allah, kau sayangilah kedua ibubapaku seperti mana mereka telah menyayangiku sejak kecil.
mama, kakak syg mama. to me, u r PERFECT! no matter what they say or how they look at you, they've seen none of your pain, they know NOTHING about you. so yes, i am blessed sbb Allah letakkn syurga kakak di bwh tapak kaki ssorg sehebat mama.
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