it doesnt deprive the beauty u hold
Tuesday, January 4, 2011,
yesterday, a friend called me wondering whether she's ready 2 wear hijab.
babe, this is for u. (org laen pown boley j bce)
honestlyla, nk ckp, kalu tunggu ready, smpi maty pown blom tntu ready. seriusli. plus, u know, bnde ni wajib. kte x ley 'halal' kan yg haram, just bcoz we feel like 2. kalu kn, bab couple2, kte x sure ready k x, but we hav the guts 2 giv it a try, y dont we do the same for this matter? think bck, what r u not ready of actually? easy answer, u r not ready 2 b ignored. takot ble pakai nnty, da x hot, x sexy, mate2 da x pndg kan? jgn tipoo. hahaha. biase la, gurl kan. been in that shoes b4. mmgla, kalu x pakai, boley pakai sexy2 kan? dpt perhatian kan? hahahhaha.
nway, just nk share, what i felt. it was nice... all the attentions. plus, ble x pakai 2dung nie, org x heran ble kte act mcm setan. free j buat ape pown. tp kan, half way through, i feel deep inside me, ade something yg x cukop. something wrong. mcm ade j x kna. so i told a friend,
U, I NK PAKAI 2DUNG, TP KALU PAKAI TAKOT NNTY DA X _______ (bia rahsie ye. ha3)
U TAKOT ORG K, TAKOT ALLAH? PILIH.
lps dye ckp tuh, tersenyap la jap kan. pastu another friend plak :
TRY LA PAKAI PELAN2. X CUBE MNE TAW. ASEK FIKIR TAKOT JE.
mama plak kate :
I BELIEVE, U KNOW WHT'S RIGHT N WHAT'S WRONG.
lps spending tyme pikir2, i dcdd 2 put on the hijab. mngaku, mmg at tymes, setan bisik sgt kuat, till it's too hard 2 fight. what i wana say here is, pakai 2dung is nt an easy thing. bnyk dugaan taw. stereotype org lgy. 2 sbb, i envy those yg kuat. yg pakai tudung dgn sempurna. 2 cover ur head, is not a big thing, pakai topi pown tutup jugak, tp yg btol2 melabuhkn tudung, tutp dada, pakai socks, baju longgar, lengan pnjg... sume tu la, x ramai yg mmpu buat. including me. im not ashame 2 admit, yes, im a coward in this aspect. i saw my long tyme friend, she's in mesir now, dye da pakai burdah skang. for me, 2 get 2 dat level, x taw la ble kan. but at least, i believe i shud start little by little skang. so 2 u, pakai je, jgn pikir sgt what will happen in the future, rse nk bukak k, ape k, leave that in Allah's hand. kte x ley nk rncang sgt. kalu dtakdirkn in the future u tanggal kan, let's pray Allah opens back ur heart 2 stop doing what's wrong. same la mcm wktu u couple dlu dgn ++++++, beria2 la kan nk smpai akhir hayat la ape, tp last2 break. nanges2. tp knape u still berani try bercinte smule? nape ble part 2dung, x berani? dont worry, everyone makes mistake. u need lessons 2 make u a better person.n it's better that way, then not trying at all. aite? plus, i've been there, done that. yes, i've learnt a beautiful lesson. rmmber, u might hav all the money in the world, a princess 2 everyone around u, but then, life without HIS blessings, x kemanela. heeee.
all i can wish for right now is, may Allah showers both of us with his guidance, n strengthen us with iman. good luck gurl. im lucky 2 have friends that remind me constantly of what's wrong n what's right. i hope, i could b like them, to u.
rse pelik la syafiqah ckp mcm nie. n out of kkwn laen, asal la u pick me nk tnye soalan pelik mcm nie! hahahahah. dah, DIAM! if u need nting else, giv me a call, dont TEXT, mls nk balas, bazir ppaid. hahahaha. syg u babe! :P
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